Life seems to alway continue to move forward no matter what is going on. There has been a huge amount of things that are going on in my life lately, mostly which is taking a toll on me mentally.
Where I am disabled and very limited financially, I have to live in places that pretty much the bottom of the barrel. Not complaining as long as I can keep a roof over my dog and myself heads. We are grateful that we are even alive.
Well I moved here about a little over 3 months ago, from a motel room. We moved here basically so we could have more room and where I was living the roof was leaking and it seemed as if the Landlord didn't want to fix things. Well this place if you could imagine is worse. There is a lot of things that need fixing and I told the guy before I moved in and he has promised and promised to fix things. He has yet done anything. I have even had to paint the living room here and it looks nice but the whole apartment needs it done, I have no hot water or even a pipe going into the bathroom sink, no door going into the bathroom, etc.
Two days ago I was sitting here and the lights went out. I thought that the breaker blew like it does sometimes. Well I went to check and none had blew so I walked around to the alley and the light company had already pulled my meter and was pulling the shop one. I told them I was on oxygen and needed it left on. I owe a back bill at the light company part of my wreckage, and they wouldn't keep it on.
Well I did what I could, I have been looking for a place but it is so hard to find a place that accepts pets. I even called APS (Adult Protection Services) on myself to report him for not paying the electric bill. My utilities are covered with my rent. I reported to the police, building inspector, etc. Seems like I can't get help from anyone about how he is treating me. My health is getting worse, black mold growing all over the bathroom walls. No one can do anything? Seems like a bunch of bull if you ask me.
So now he (landlord) said he is raising my rent up $150.00 USD a month for the winter. I don't see how he can do this. I am looking for another place, it just isn't looking very promising right now.
Stil remaining clean. I thought about using, yet, I know that will not solve anything.
Hope things turn around, I am running out of time. Only about a week now till I have to have a place to live.
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Just Keep ON KEEPING ON!!!!!!!!!! If we live we are just pretty lucky
Hello Man! You are correct as long as you don't pick up,you got a shot of situations working out(you know that)I'll keep you in prayer.Have you checked out help from DSS or Social Services?My son (in recovery from heroin addiction since 17,now 25 ,first year clean)is getting aid with an apartment and able to go to school at night thru a Pell grant.He is also on 5 years probation but doing well so he is getting some assistance.These are the times where the 'monster tells us " ah what the F---- ,everything fallin apart ,might as well get twisted..ITS A LIE!!!!Hang in Man,stay in touch and let us know how you are moving forward okay....I will lift you up in prayer as soon as I shut this down...peace
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
hang in there bro,,,, the best revenge you can take on those evil people is to stay clean and serene, just for today, no matter what, inspite of odds !!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
ITs going to be amazing what God brings to you as long as you do your end of the deal, its a deal breaker once you go self will or self reliant so stay on track no matter what, maybe go back to the hotel?
meditation, prayer, ask his will be done ask to be shown direction. It can get so frustrating but just turn it over and put your feet in front of your mouth and keep moving, always saying " thy will be done", stay clean you got this....
