Ok, another weekend of Crystal use and another chance to ket a white key tag and reenergize my program.
I have been dealing with Meth use since 2000 and came into recvoery July 2007. The longest clean time I have had is 15 months. My pattrn has been six to eight months between uses. This last one was only 76 days. I relasped Memorial weekend.
This is very scary to me that my cravings and acting out came so early this time. I know I was teasing my addict and texting with old using people using IM and Facebook. I lived in a recovery house for 13 months and was in an intense outpatient program in 2007. Perhaps its time to rethink what Im not doing.
Are there an addicts out there that have been diagnosed as with Bi Polar or ADD? I feel as a 50 year old man I have signs of either of these or both. I would live to hear from someone that can give me some insight of what they do in recovery dealing with being an addict and ADD or Bi Polar
Welcome back. The NA program works the same regardless of what drugs you used or what other problems you have (bipolar, etc.). Go to meetings, get a sponsor and a home group, work the steps, get involed in service work and the fellowship, pray and meditate, and don't hang around your old playmates and play places. I know it is hard to give up your old friends, but I found that I must do this to stay clean. They really had nothing to offer me except drugs. This is a very simple program, but it only works if you work it. Keep coming back!
Hi and welcome. Mood swings...high highs and low lows are typical for addicts. Getting a diagnosis doesn't change the fact that you are using dangerous drugs to feel better. "We admitted we are powerless over our addiction and our lives have become unmanageable" It begins with the first step. "The only desire for membership is a desire to stop using" If you want to stop using drugs NA can help. good luck to you.
Welcome Back! You don't have to continue your pattern. You don't have to keep going back out. Yet if you do relapse again Keep Coming Back.
Half measures availed us nothing. Keep playing around in your old play grounds if you want BUT we have found it necessary to change our hang outs in order to STAY Clean. Indeed in today's day and age this includes electronic hang outs and playgrounds.
Go to 90 NA Meetings in the next 90 days. Meet new Clean people to hang with. Develop a support system of people with like minded goals of STAYING Clean.
I'm a 57 year old Clean addict coming up on 31 years of One Day at a Times. NA WORKS if you want it and work it. From what I've seen over and over and over again relapses don't suddenly happen, we set ourselves up to relapse by not working a rigorous program of Recovery. The choice is yours. I choose to Live and stay Clean.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
"Are there an addicts out there that have been diagnosed as with Bi Polar or ADD"
Actually there are a ton of us. When my daughter was diagnosed with ADD, I said to the counselor, "Gee those were exactly my sypmtons". Add into it, a pill doc told me I was bi-polar, and gee there we are.
Soooo, we have to work at recovery, maybe twice as hard, maybe not, as everybody else... Why seperate ourselves from a room full of peole just like us? I learn how to accept myself, the past, the future, and today for the blessing it is. IF I had refused to accept my addiction, I'd still be out there struggling, sinking deeper into a black hole of bad feelings.
My life is improving beyond my greatest expectations, because of the 12 steps, NA, and my higher power. Feel free to email me.
