Been decreasing my medications that I have been on for a long time. My tolerance increased so my medicine use has increased to the point that I don't remember a lot of things. This is the end of the road for me.
Hi Luna, Thanks for the share. I want to share that a 101 times I tried cold turkey and dint succeed.. In the meanwhile I was causing irreversible damage to my nervous system. the result, though I finally got clean and have stayed clean many years now, it dosent take much to be a nervous wreck again..
I usually thought at those times of unmanageability that I wasnt suited to this program, I wasnt being "in the program" etc. Thoughts that said I wasnt good enough to recover..
Then by an NA miracle, i was to learn that doing withdrawls without proper medical supervision results in serious setbacks to the recovery process. I would never want another addict to be denied complete recovery from drugs because they chose to go cold......
Please take care, be gentle with yourself; your time to recover is upon you now,,,, Godspeed !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I know exactly how it feels. I detoxed myself 5 days ago. It did get ALOT better though. Yesterday I went to a meeting. It wasn't my first but 2 years ago things were different. All I wanna say though is to have faith and courage and I know that you will pull through, just like I have. Its scary, yeah, but if you want it hard enough, then it will pass. I've gaven up everything because I wasn't the same person I was 2 years ago, but everyday gets better. Believe me. I have faith that everything will turn out the way My Higher Power wants it to and I am determined to see the light through this tunnel.
Thank you for the Topic.I can identify i was in jail for 9 months i just got out.I had a rough days. I was always involved in arguement or fight with inmates.I even put my hands on one inmate one day.I was always angry, depress,resentenful, and afraid.After that i had to seek outside help.I had to go see the psychitrist,she put me on medication.After i started to feel better, i started epxeriencing serenity, peace with myself,laughing,talking and playing with inmates.Overall i felt good about myself,thank GOD for my surrending from minkind to every creature on this earth has contribute to my life.Thank you for making this online meeting possible.Thank you for letting me share.Amadou B
