Hello everyone! My name is Devon and I'm 21yrs with 2 kids. I have tried every drug to name, except actual heroin, and I suffered from a strong pill addiction for over a year. I started June last year. Was clean Dec & Jan 10-11. Then when I went back to my hometown started up again, and I just changed my entire life.
I was living in Inverness Florida after reconnecting with a long lost love who got me introduced to Narcotics. I moved to Hawaii Nov 26 - Feb 2 and the entire time I remained completely clean. When I went back to FL however I restarted my pill addiction. Now I'm back in Hawaii with no intentions of returning to FL, although thats a strong maybe if my boyfriend finishes his rehab / detox program and remains living in Daytona rather than Inverness.
I think that's it. So again my name is Devon and I'm looking to meet new, CLEAN friends who know what it's like to have an addiction and having no one for support. I look forward to meeting you!
Hello Dev! Welcome,good to see ya here..Congrats on your clean time.Are you attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings in your area or have a sponsor?These are two very important situations especially as you are just putting the substance down,At meetings you will meet people just like you and also be able to listen for a sponsor and get into the "GOAL" OF OUR PROGRAM RECOVERY THRU OUR 12 STEPS AND NOT JUST ABSTINENCE.Once you put the drugs down you can begin,with guidance to understand who "you" are and learn how we apply principles in our lives that teach us "no matter what we just dont pick up again>It will take work and we are a program for people who want it ,not necessarily need it ,so c'mon in.We are here for each other, no big I's or little U's ..WE do this together..Hope to hear more from you..Stick around,we need you....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
No, I'm not yet seeing an actual NA group, as I'm new to the area and unfamiliar with my wide new surroundings. I don't want to get lost just yet so I'm waiting til I can get a GPS to go. Meantime, I'm looking for some online support.
I do need a sponser. I don't want to ever pick back up on such a bad habit. Especially not because of my children. I need to be clean for them and set a better example than I have.
Welcome hugs Devon. Ive met many from the Hawaii Fellowship of NA and all of them were warm , immensley helpful people. They are the kind that'd go out of the way to pick up a newcomer and do all they can to have newbies feel at home.m at MIPis
This forum at Miracles in Progress is a wonderful supplement. I can say this with honesty as Ive been here for about 7 years now and count many members here as those who are very suportive of my recovery.
Theres lots of women too, who'd surely offer you sponsorship services, and share experience, strength and hope with you. The heart of NA beats when one addict shares with another, and one addict can best understand and help another addict.
Best of luck and keep coming back, and give your kinds a hug on my behalf,, they deserve to be loved and cared for in every way !!!
-- Edited by Raman on Sunday 24th of July 2011 01:32:35 AM
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Welcome to NA. It's a simple program: don't use, go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, get involved in the fellowship and service. Hope you can make it to meetings soon.
Hi Devon and welcome. It must be hard being so young with 2 children and a drug addiction pulling at you. You can use all the support you can get i'm sure. We can help, but you people you can be face to face with. Why not go to NA.org and enter your zip code...you'll find a link to the local helpline and their you can call and ask for women who are willing to pick you up and take you to a meeting. Good luck and keep coming back.
I'd love to start attending NA meetings to help get over my "want" or "Need" for narcotics. I hate this feeling, because when I'm addicted, all I care about in the morning is getting money together to find that pill. I don't care anymore for material things. I don't care for much of anything else but that stupid pill chase.
And I had a great life before the addiction! I was a very materialistic girl because growing up I didn't have anything, so I appreciated the things I got after moving on from my parents grasp. Then I sold, traded, or got stolen, all of my material things. I had a lot of expensive stuff! For example, a video baby monitor with night vision, 2 digital 12mp cameras, a 1200 dollar gaming laptop by gateway, a new pspgo, an ereader, and 17 button gamers mouse, and others I can't think of. Oh an nintendo DS lite, Wii, ps2, and 360. All I traded, sold, or got stolen for pills.
Now I'm back in Hawaii. I feel like I have a second chance, and I'm diving right into getting my life back and becoming ME again! So thanks for the supportive comments!! I'm definitely staying here for a while!
Keep Coming Back! No Just Stay! Welcome! No matter what don't pick up No matter What your life will get better! I have 3 kids! Working on getting 2 of them back in my home! The 3rd has been adopted by my Family! Think postive forget the negative! God is Good! Pray and have Faith!
Well today proves that life is good! I just found out I'm recieving a 100k inheritance from my deceased aunt-in-laws WILL! Imagine, if I were still using, I could blow through it quick and not even THINK of other options!
But now I'm thinking I can pay off my credit and put some away for my boys futures!!! How good it does feel to not want to use!
Yeaaaaahhh Devon.. Great news. I can feel your joy and relief.
Im father and single parent to a sixteen year old. Her mother and I seperated wen baby was just three. ever since, Ive brought her up and by the Grace Of God, I think Ive done ok.
Making her future secure in terms of family and finance was always a priority. The family she had was dad and grandma and cousins, that was sorted. The real test for me was to save for her future. When I got an inheritance, I shared half of that with her.
I think we are financially quite ok, but when I fisr got tha money, I was actually scared after being elated. This was the first time Id be handling that much ( about 100,000) cash.
By close association and indetification with other addicts in NA groups, including MIP, I got that evened. The 12 Steps was the solution..
Believe me about the loads of self-esteem I got by doing something for my kid. Its always worth the sacrifice.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I called up the number in one of the links and I couldn't understand what the automated service was talking about, but I think it was saying NA was held in the Army Hospital here on Oahu. Is there another number I can try? Or should I just select to talk to an addict about location of meetings? Plus their schedules seem to be from 11am to noon! Which works for me since the guy I live with goes to work at 2:20p.m. so I don't have to take my kids to NA with me!
Hi Don,,,, far cry it is,,, money in life insurance, fixed deposits and the likes..... ive secured my girl and ma for the long run...
But still having hell of a time with having enough daily bread !!! This jobs sorted things out a bit,, but the next cheque too will be gone as soon as it is credited...
And these days, Im regretting an insurance cover I took very impulsively last year at this time... I could have got the same coverage by another route that would have had a lesser lock in period.
And now with his cover, I got to pay each year for three years, otherwise the moneys gone. And its quite a huge sum each year,, and this is whats tied me up in knots....
Its got me doing some very wishful thinking..........sigh.......
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I can say this very proudly! I have invested some in a Military created high interest rate for my kids for their futures. My [soon-to-be] ex husband is Military. So we do a lot of stuff through military.. and no I wasn't currently with him when I suffered my drug addiction.... but I'm very happy without drugs in my life!
Althought I learned of a recent tragedy... a famous patriotic restraunt in my home town just burnt to the ground Monday morning... I really wanna help but I'm afraid to.... I hope they rebuild! Any honest loving american will love their restraunt! You should read about it at:
http://chronicleonline.com its pretty much homepage and its such a heartbreak to read about... I love these people as if they were a part of my own family and to witness their tragedy from Hawaii... is just so horrible... I feel just awful
