will i ever be happy? this constant depression is killing me inside and out. i am out of the hospital but i feel like i could live in a hole where no one knew where i was and curl up and die. the love of my life is moving 300 miles away, and that is just not helping the situation at all. i have been in my room laying in bed for the past 2 weeks. i just can not get out of this funk.
i am posting this video. i love it. this is demi lovato who i loveeeeeeeeeeee
she is a disney channel star and has been dealing with anorexia/bulimia, self mutilation, and bi polar. just like me. she has recently gone to treatment and this is her first #1 single she has released since being out of treatment.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Happiness is personal to each individual....The presense of God will bring a peace that surpasses all understanding and open your heart for happiness.
some things for positive movement toward serenity(happiness)
1) understand what you think will make you happy
2)make a plan for goals toward happiness
3)try and be around happy people,,isolation is dangerous and keeps us in our heads
4)constantly reach toward solutions and work out of the problem
5)spend time thinking of happy times
6) do something nice foryourself
7) take care your health
8)remember you deserve happiness.
Depression is a serious situation it may be worth seeing medical people for help
im sure you are aware that isolation is not good,so it will take work to "get out" and try and work thru this
my 25 year old son a recovering heroin addict has been diagnosed with severe OCD,manic depression,anger issues AHDD,severe anxiety disorder and anti social behaviors,He spent most of his 8 years of addiction never being happy.He has worked thru and is enjoying times of happiness and getting treatment for his illnesses so YES i believe you will be happy, but it takes your resolve.
A gratitude list (probably the last thing you feel like thinking about can remind you of the grace of God in your life.
i CONTINUALLY KEEP YOU IN PRAYER AND GLAD TO SEE YOU POSTING.WE CAN'T GET HELP IF WE DON'T LET PEOPLE KNOW WHATS GOING ON!
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BECAUSE THAT WILL ALLOW YOU TO HAVE POSITIVE RELATIONSHIPS...If your relationship is meant to be,it will work out im sure...
bEFORE YOU SHUT THEM EYEBALLS TONIGHT ,THINK ABOUT OUR 3RD/11STEPS..INSTILL THEM IN YOUR HEART AND WAKE TO THEM EACH DAY!
YOU ARE STRONG AND can work thru this.we are definitely here. at least i hope your bones and muscles are feeling better Our Higher Power allows us to heal physically,mentally and spiritually,let the Master Physician go to work...in support!!(pull out the umbrella
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Oh my. So sorry to hear of your sorrow. I know depression well. I understand the feelings of hopelessness and utter despair. The feeling that my life is useless. That i don't deserve the air I breathe. Mike has made some wonderful suggestions. Keeping our faith in our higher power, praying for Him to do for us what we cannot do for ourselves is a powerful healing force I learned from our program. I also learned that if I can keep my thoughts focused on today I am always better off. My biggest problems when I let myself drift into regret for actions taken yesterday, or fear of what the future may bring. You do deserve happiness. "Move a muscle, change a mood" words of wisdom from my sponsor when i'm in the funk. Get up, get out...do SOMETHING...anything. It can only help. God bless you defeated girl. You are in my prayers.
Talking to a lady the other day at a meeting she said she had been diagnosed with anti social anxiety, she wakes up in the morning and immediately starts to panic and doesnt want to go outside doesnt want to be around people.
She says she then goes into prayer and meditation with god, and it pulls her out of her funk, she can then get dressed and go to work.
This all takes effort and willingness to try different things until you find what works for you.
I to have depression, my backs been out for over a week now but i have to keep moving, the pain thing depress's me, mess's up my body and mind.
SORRY TO HEAR THE SADNESS IN YOU...YOU CAN OVERCOME..TAKES WORK...SOMETIMES DOCTORS, WORKING STEPS, MEETINGS, SPONSOR AND CONNECTING..I BELIEVE NO MATTER WHAT WE ARE GOING THRU..IT'S A MUST TO BE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO WILL LIFT YOU..AND STAYING UNDER THE COVERS..CAN BE DANGEROUS..SO TODAY YOU GET TO CHOOSE..NO MATTER HOW YOU ARE FEELING..YOU CAN TAKE ACTION..I TRULY HOPE YOU ARE TAKING SOME OF THE SUGGESTIONS...WE MUST FOLLOW SOMEONE SOME OF THE TIME..OR WE ARE ALONE
Do or do not, there is no try. While said (or made popular) by a movie character yet it is true. To merely try is a lack of belief, lack of conviction, lack of faith.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
well i got up and went to work today. then their was a bonfire at my church and went to that and played some volleyball. it was fun because i wasnt thinking about reality but now that im home the feelings are back.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
well i got up and went to work today. then their was a bonfire at my church and went to that and played some volleyball. it was fun because i wasnt thinking about reality but now that im home the feelings are back.
Going to work followed by some fun IS reality!
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
That's great Liz....the message i get is that when you keep active you are happy, or at least ok. when you are alone you fall back into depression. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....stay active. Go to work,,,not for the money or to shut the boss up but for your own mental health. then keep the momentum going. the glass is half full.... I'm praying and cheering for you.
I always say 'ANYDAY ABOVE GROUND IS A GOOD DAY FOR ME" the rest i'll just have to deal with!!! Was thru no help from me that God allowed me life through His grace GRACE..God's unmerited favor for us! the only thing I merited was a coffin,,,,,it wasn't to be!! Keep at it Liz,,good to see ya!!!
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