COMING BACK IS WHAT i DID, i AM NOT PROUD OF THE RELAPSE BUT i AM PROUD OF MYSELF, i DID NOT LET IT BECOME MY DESTINY. AND THE GOD OF MY UNDERSTANDING WAS RIGHT THERE TO WALK WITH ME. I AM GRATEFUL IT WAS A TRULY HUMBLING EXPERIENCE ONE.
Theres always something more we learn about ourselves and our disease after a relapse, it's usually something missing in the recipe for success . For me 5 years ago after a relapse I realized I hadn't been totally honest with myself about the seriousness of my condition, I didnt WANT to take it to seriously I wanted the back door to remain open so I could slip out and when I did I had the awakening, THIS IS SERIOUS!!!
Glad your back and i'll share something with you that helped me with my esteam,
"Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorius triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat. "
Thank you so much for your kind and wise words, I did learn a lot about myself I am a very strong person and I forgot that. I forgot that life was good for a minute. I also became to relaxed with my addiction and that is what lead to the relapse but I am back in the rooms and in church, my significant other found this site and I am glad she did because on the days I cannot make it to the rooms becuse of work I find myself here talking and getting what I need to face another day.
