I decided i wanted a new life so i reached out for help from my loved ones. I didnt want to suffer anymore from this addiction and it was killing me. Im glad i found this website because it allows me to communicate with others going through what i am, when i dont have a meeting.
I plan on going to 4 meetings this week. (Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday) The first meeting i went to was amazing, i even decided to share a little about what i was feeling before i started to choke up with emotion. Dont be afraid to talk, they want to hear you..... thats what i was thinking at my first meeting. I had to join in on the communication.
I think going to NA meetings is going to be a huge roll in my recovery because the feeling you get going to them and listening to everyone is amazing. Knowing that everyone there has been in your shoes and knows how you feel. NA meetings make you feel amazing. I cant explain it.
I plan on doing all i can to conquer this addiction. It is by far the toughest thing in the world in my opinion. I would never wish addiction on anyone, not even my worst enemys..... that says alot doesnt it. I will continue to check back with you guys on here, and give my support as well.
Congratulations,kenkitley,I am glad to see you are attending meetings and wanting to go . We all started with one,you get sick of all the misery from addiction.I had been a using addict for 39 years of my life , I went to a meeting and was not sure now I will be celebrating 7 years on 1/10/2012 . I never thought I could say that could say that.There is a life after addiction and you can have fun at the same time.
Welcome and glad to hear your message of hope .We do have a solution,so continue on the road"to that life better than any you have ever known.Stick around ,we need you!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
You're doing nothing wrong if you not using and going to meetings. Keep this up. Moods/emotions change. We can't feel great all the time. We addicts have a hard time dealing with this, because we used to drugs to change the way we feel.
At meeting the other day a member said " We dont suffer well, we need to learn to suffer", for me that is a very true statement.
We need to learn how to deal with discomfort, dis ease.
For me i'm a big ol baby, I cry and whine, bable on not feeling good or not getting what I want and expect from everything I even have the tendency to throw rather large and sometimes humongus tantrums, i'm 49 years old and still act and behave like a small child, BUT it's getting better :)
I will be honest here, every aspect and situation in my life I try to turn over to God for help, mostly when something is troubling to me because I really do want to do the best I can in all things and if I allow myself to be God centered and do as I think he would have me do the outcome, every time, always, calm and easy and no one gets hurt, otherwise i'm a train wreck.
Im not religious at all but last night while laying in bed i spoke out to "someone" for help out loud. Ive never done that in my life...... and i feel semi well today. More motivated than yesterday thats for sure. I guess i will just have to deal with it day by day and be strong.
I never had more then a grain of faith and its held me for a few years now, the idea is to be openminded to the possibly, theres something called " contempt prior to investigation" that holds a lot of people back from having a higher power, good luck.
Yeah, i do need to find a good solid sponsor, my brother in law found one last night at our NA meeting...... he robbed me! But other than that, im starting to get energy back, my mood is pretty good (but could easly change) and tomorrow is my 2 week clean time!
, i'm 49 years old and still act and behave like a small child, BUT it's getting better :)
