I went to my first meeting today! I was scared as hell too. But when I got there I got hugs and my welcome token and everybody was so excited that I was there. It was really neat. I have tried to go for three days now and the first one wasnt at the address it was supposed to be at and yesterday was a holiday, but today I tried again and made it! So May 30th is my official clean day. I was asked if I was court ordered to go or if I had lost my kids and thats why I was there, but no, I told them I am TIRED! Nobody made me do it. And today was hard before I went. I was not feeling good at all. Grumpy and tired and my boyfriend was saying I was jonesy. And he was right. But I just knew, something was telling me that if I just went I would feel better. Im going to go to another one tomorrow. It was nice to be in a place where I didnt have to hide what I was or feel bad for it or be judged for it. It was a nice change. And posting on here and getting feedback from you guys is what helped get me through the last couple of days til I could get to a meeting. THANKS!
Hey that's a great start to face that fear of walking in your first meeting. update us on your progress and always here to help. If there is a day you don't think you need to go or don't feel like going, those are the days you really really need to go. something that helped me early when I was jonesing is I thought of it as a bad flu and sooner or later I was going to feel better...It will get better!
-- Edited by Iamfree2day on Tuesday 31st of May 2011 11:34:13 PM
You rock! I'm so glad you kept trying. Thanks for updating us on your process. I logged on today to see if I could find a post from you and there it was. My heart is very heavy the past few days from my friend deciding to leave. Getting to hear how your pushing hrough because your tired means a lot. Keep coming back and you never have to suffer again. Hug, Jackie
