Recovery begins when we forever give up the hope of having a different past
The more time I spent re-living a past I couldn't change, my family.. the abuse..the wrongs done to me (real and imagined) the more I was missing out on the today that I could. Once I heal my past, I can be of service to those who are in need of healing..
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Carrying the message of hope and freedom from active addiction to the addict who still suffers.
The past is gone and I just can't change what has happened. Tommorow never comes. All I have is today and I pray that I make the most of each and every day as it comes...........
Thanks Avid..it's one of my favs too..it comes from a series of books, "The Wisdom of the Rooms"....they have weekly reflections that are simply the cliches we hear in the rooms, they are followed by a few questions to write about that reveal how the reflection fits in your life...if you google the books you'll find them =)
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Carrying the message of hope and freedom from active addiction to the addict who still suffers.
OUCH that one hurt buts its true.See you and Rhiv hit a little spiritual bumb in the road.Thats very common with me to.I always try to do to much early when I get clean.Its noble ,but sends my stress and anxiety levels thru roof.Since Im such an expert actor, I think I convince even me,that Im fine.This time screw it man,Im going to meetings,and Im not doing nothing for as long as humanly possible. I already told everyone,Im going to have flu for about a year so leave me alone .My friends think Im nuts ,when I was younger they thought I had a death wish.They may have been right about being a little crazy,but it was the drugs depression and just not giving a damn.Thats what drugs did to me.Now half of them are dead and I walk the earth like a jolly green giant.I never told anyone this.Sometimes I wonder if it was luck,or god.
I dont feel better today.Im at end of physical detox about 10 days.Concentration is about 1 hour per day.Depends how much sleep I get ,you know.Im going to get blast of cortizone,and xylocaine in neck this month.Im in a decent amount of pain thats for sure.A few lucid moments,but a long way to go. Hope your well ,thanks.
