"As we approach this step, most of us are afraid that there is a monster inside of us that, if released, will destroy us."
Basic Text, p. 27
Most of us are terrified to look at ourselves, to probe our insides. We're afraid that if we examine our actions and motives, we'll find a bottomless black pit of selfishness and hatred. But as we take the Fourth Step, we'll find that those fears were unwarranted. We're human, just like everyone else-no more, no less. We all have personality traits that we're not especially proud of. On a bad day, we may think that our faults are worse than anyone else's. We'll have moments of self-doubt. We'll question our motives. We may even question our very existence. But if we could read the minds of our fellow members, we'd find the same struggles. We're no better or worse than anyone else. We can only change what we acknowledge and understand. Rather than continuing to fear what's buried inside us, we can bring it out into the open. We'll no longer be frightened, and our recovery will flourish in the full light of self-awareness.
Just for Today: I fear what I don't know. I will expose my fears and allow them to vanish.
-- Edited by Dave R on Sunday 15th of May 2011 05:35:30 AM
Hi Dave, is this the Self Inventory step you're talking about? If it is, I remember doing this step my stomach turned and I was so scare to do this step. All I wanted to do is run away from myself and everyone. I didn't want anyone to know the things i"ve done or been through for drugs. I myself didn't want to face them. When I finally got the courage I felt so relief and the weight off of me.
I am working the 4th step for my 2nd time I must say I did not find it as hard as people made it sound shure I would have to look at some messed up stuff about myself , but it was never as bad as living it, and I do a personal inventory every day anyway in my mind, im always thinking about what I did where ive been whom I did wrong where im going how im getting there, so really it was not as bad as people made it out to be.
Love you all Good Luck
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