i just had my whole family walk out on me during mother's day. yes that day is hard on me and the rest of my family and they found out that i had the same cancer my mother dead with. so i got emotional upset and they told me that i was bipolar and need to start taking meds ok so i started taking the meds and been up for three days when its supposed to help me sleep im affraids that im hooked on the drugs and the wouldnt work at all. no matter what. then im affraid all start depending on these drugs and want more and more. im at lost with it. hepl plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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one minute at a time it works when you don't give up
As difficult as it gets Jason,you can return to our 1st step! The awareness of Admission,surrender,powerlessness/unmanageability,addiciton,obsession/compulsion /reservations and the continued awareness of,,, lead us to the beginning our of "healing'! Fear comes from our reliance on ourselves and not shifting to a Higher Power!My 25 year old son is a Heroin addict on 140mg's per day of methadone,on Prozac for anxiety disorders,has severe OCD which he takes other ssri's for and sleeps like a vampire during the day and up at night.He is still working to find the balance,He is manic/depressive/has anger issues and has to work very hard each day to remain in this world.Stay strong,takes meds as prescribed and remember WE do recover from that hopeless state of body and mind,but it is based on a fit'spiritual" condition,that daily reprieve that we have to work toward.Only you know if your "using" or doing what doctors telling you to do.In support and prayer.....
-- Edited by MIKEF on Sunday 15th of May 2011 04:15:10 PM
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.