I sit as my health deterates due to kidney failure I throw up my arms and say wtf y me? haven't i suffered enough? thinking of found memories in which my family has given him the name DOctor Dick the one that posted as kelli a some remember I remeber all too well the suicide not e he posted talking about the homw in which I am moving from so he cannot find me but needing him to tell me what docs know to help ease the process I have not heard or seen him in long time i should be over this right? nope! I am not he played my heart strings to the point I can't forget and part of me doesn't want to i am in therapy now process whjat i hid from for so long when I realize just how much time I lost due to having multiples the time i cannot replace I long to know what happen I can only coneect the dots with public records and I can't help but to feel guilt with fault had I left our love affair a secret he would still practice medicine in which he loved as I love d him WTF is wrong with me ppl say it was abuse I want to believe it was real LOVE!!! any way i sit and wait for a knock but nothing and soon I won't be where he called home (listening to daughtry) bad new for me but I can't get him outta my mind as my health is bad and getting worse a doctor that can comfort me sounds like good medicine but the ppl who love me would murder hima nd me if they knew if I were to talk to him againI dunno what to think or do!
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon! hang in there ,trust in your Higher Power for some peace and serenity.Havent been on in a bit,life coming full blown here at us.Approaching a lot of trying situations in daily events and staying as focused as possible applying spiritual principles and staying God centered..Work/finances/kids/ have been keeping my wife and I working for stability.In all things we will remain faithful to God as God is to us..I;ll get back on site and see how everyone is doing soon.Started a new band also and been busy getting players,rehearsing etc.Wish you peace and strength..This weekend my 22 year old daughter baby shower ,she is due in maY. Gramps back in action,once again.God is good,all the time..
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Have to realize others are sick too Manon, its not just us but just about everyone has some maladjustments, that makes it easier to forgive them when they hurt us.
Take care of your health, follow all the directions think healthy kidney not sick think positive and stay out of the why me, i always say why not me LOL...
The Eastern practice of Meditation, enunciated in the 11th Step and best done daily for even a short while is the only real way out of the darkness of broken relationships... Yes, some do suffer more than others, but primarily that isnt because of what was done by the partner. Our partner's actions have caused us hurt and pain, no doubt; cant deny that. But sufferin comes from the way we choose to react to alll that.
"PAIN IS A REALITY BUT SUFFERING IS OPTIONAL"
So,,, what say ye ???
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
