Many times in our recovery, the old bugaboos will haunt us. Life may again become meaningless, monotonous, and boring.
Basic Text, p. 78
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Sometimes it seems as though nothing changes. We get up and go to the same job every day. We eat dinner at the same time every night. We attend the same meetings each week. This mornings rituals were identical to the ones we performed yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. After the hell of our addiction and the roller-coaster craziness of early recovery, the stable life may have some appealfor a while. But, eventually, we realize we want something more. Sooner or later, we become turned off to the creeping monotony and boredom in our lives.
There are sure to be times when we feel vaguely dissatisfied with our recovery. We feel as though were missing something for some reason, but we dont know what or why. We draw up our gratitude lists and find literally hundreds of things to be grateful for. All our needs are being met; our lives are fuller than we had ever hoped theyd be. So whats up?
Maybe its time to stretch our potential to its fullest. Our possibilities are only limited by what we can dream. We can learn something new, set a new goal, help another newcomer, or make a new friend. Were sure to find something challenging if we look hard enough, and life will again become meaningful, varied, and fulfilling.
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Just for today: Ill take a break from the routine and stretch my potential to its fullest.
I rarely find myself thinking life is meaningless, monotonous, or boring today. My life is full of so many positive and interesting things--family,friends, works, hobbies--and it is all due to staying clean and working a strong NA program.
