from my shoulders. yesterday was a rough day. just because of the cravings at work. i got home got on my knees and cried out in despairation. pulling myself together a friend of mine asked what i was doing later that day. i said nothing. she invited me to an event called XLT. i had no idea what it was. for all you catholics out there yesterday was ash wednesday a day of fasting and repentance. so went to the borromeo seminary. had mass. got ashes. and after was adoration. for all you non catholics eucharistic adoration is a time when the blessed sacrament is exposed and you pray and worship it. as i kneeled for an hour praying my heart out, crying, and singing to the awesome music its like he lifted the weight of the world off my chest. today i feel great. im so thankful for my friend who called me when i was at a low and took me to experience something i forgot i loved.
Today in my chemical dependency and society class we had a debate. topic is chemical dependency hereditary? it was a great debate. a bit out of control and angry but great! the opposing side got off topic and starting talking about AA and the principles of religion and spirituality. most of the opposing side was non addicts and they were getting so mad. my side the for side were mostly addicts and alcoholics. guess what. we won. ha.
Today is a good day.
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Right on, woman! Whatever keeps ya going! I grew up Catholic, so the whole feast days thing ties my stomach in knots. I love the ceremonial stuff, but I have some serious resentments that I'll probably have to work on with my next 4th step... lol
Hey Liz! I was an altar boy from 2nd grade on in Parochial school(where i would drink,sacristy wine!! yikes,talk about guilt!!)Detention on Saturdays in the convent with nuns,forced to receive communion (3 hours before couldnt eat) sadistic,would feel like passing out for 6;00 oclock service)on to another school parachial ,thrown out for hitting a nun(little more guilt) and then on to Catholic High School ,first in our area,Now we had the brothers not nuns...,time for fisticuffs!! runaway !!!! and I did from all of it..I have same God I have always had,but a much different relationship nowadays all of love,none of punishment and rules..I have no religion only a relationship with my God that guides my life in all things,aint it cool,a process not an event.. anyway im laughing thinking of the 2 opposing sides,I can feel people squirming...You sound much more up today and that is a blessing!!!! peace..
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Hey Liz! I was an altar boy from 2nd grade on in Parochial school(where i would drink,sacristy wine!! yikes,talk about guilt!!)Detention on Saturdays in the convent with nuns,forced to receive communion (3 hours before couldnt eat) sadistic,would feel like passing out for 6;00 oclock service)on to another school parachial ,thrown out for hitting a nun(little more guilt) and then on to Catholic High School ,first in our area,Now we had the brothers not nuns...,time for fisticuffs!! runaway !!!! and I did from all of it..I have same God I have always had,but a much different relationship nowadays all of love,none of punishment and rules..I have no religion only a relationship with my God that guides my life in all things,aint it cool,a process not an event.. anyway im laughing thinking of the 2 opposing sides,I can feel people squirming...You sound much more up today and that is a blessing!!!! peace..
YOU HIT A NUN! thank you. haahah you are much more brave than i am! as many times as i have wanted to hit someone religious i never had the guts to do so.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
c I bet you feel like a brand new woman knowing that you can be cured from all of it. all it takes sometimes is a patience and beliefs and you could do just about anything.
as i kneeled for an hour praying my heart out, crying, and singing to the awesome music its like he lifted the weight of the world off my chest. today i feel great. im so thankful for my friend who called me when i was at a low and took me to experience something i forgot i loved.
Amazing how our Higher Power can work in our lives. Yes, indeed TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Liz step 11 is so important, when i dont meditate and pray enough i get really messed up in my head and my living, soon as i get back to step 11 im good so theres something definetly there, you had a little spiritual awakening and a psychic change those are good signs for an addict in recovery you go girl!!
