Good Afternoon everyone. i am new here. Been smoking weed for many many years and I nNEED to stop. It makes me lazy and grumpy afterwards. Also I feel guilty after i smoke. I need some encouragement from people who understand what it's like to quit. Thanks xoxo
Hey Sonia! Welcome to MIP..We are here for one another but you will really get the best of the program of Narcotics Anonymous by showing up to a meeting and see whats going on.Don't let the illness talk you out of it,you know compare like 'Man I ain't like that ,I just smoke weed etc..Identify with the feelings you are relaying here.Your unmanageable,you "need to stop"(form of powerlessness)So stick around here ,see whats going on with our loving ,caring group of addicts in one stage or another of recovery or addiction.There is no judgement only an opportunity to show you a "new way to live"You can also GOOGLE NA.ORG pull up our literature,Basic Text,Information pamphlets and do a little "inside " work..That will give you a basis but nothing replaces one addict helping another(only you can decide where you fit in the scheme)During my active years I smoked 3 packs (well burned anyway)cigarettes and dealt weed so it was not unusual to smoke ounce of that everynight,to the point of spitting up black bile in the a.m. ,Not a pretty picture but adiction never is...It just disguises itself...Hope to see you back lettin us know how your first meeting went.!!!!
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Welcome! I was a pothead too. I tried to moderate/control/reduce my drug usage, but couldn't. I finally realized I might need some help and tried going to NA meetings. It was the best decision I have ever made. Today, I am grateful to free from pot, alcohol, and the other drugs I used. I hope you get to some NA meeting soon. Keep coming back.
I was there, too. I wasn't smoking because I wanted to...I felt I had to. My wife pointed out what was obvious, that I didn't buy a bag and put it in the freezer to break out occassionally. I was a maintenance user and for the most part, didn't even enjoy it any longer.
I know what would happen if I smoked weed again (14 months clean). I would start to think about "upping the experience" and I would go buy cigarettes (10 months clean there) and then a couple of black russians (8 months this time around) and as long as I'm at it (the thrill of the hunt begins) I'd make a phone call or go to a more criminal-friendly bar and find the right narcotic to really bait-the-dragon. But the dragon would still remain elusive, just like every other time, and I would end up caught either in a web of lies, jail, homeless or jobless and broke.
I also didn't buy a bag of weed to let it sit. A bag never lasted long, and then I always went to get more. I used everyday, usually several times a day. It took me a while to see that this was a problem, but I see it so clearly now, and I grateful to NA for helping me to remember what it was like and to not want to go back.
My story regarding marijuana is similar to y'all. Odd then how some both in the program and out view pot as "not really" an addictive, destructive drug. Pot caused me to isolate, become paranoid, estrange myself from my family and my values. I was quite ill using pot. After a time there was no pleasure in it, it was simple the obsession/compulsion of the disease having it's way with me. Don't minimize the damage that pot can do to your life. Pot heads, like junkies and crack heads are putting a substance in their bodies to fill in for something that is missing. You are one of us, and can benefit from the fellowship. Welcome.
Thanks David. I can really tell how thoughtful and supportive all you are and I appreciate the kind words. You are soooo right. It does nothing for me anymore. I don't enjoy it. It's all in my head. I've been clean 2 days!!!!
First of all 2days is a big start trust me on this one, the 1st 2 days was the hardest for me cuz I felt like my body needed the pot to keep it from aching and now its been 7 months and I dont even have the urge to use that stuff. and by me going to na meetings is really a big help. So I say to you keep up the good work and do your hardest on staying clean
I never realized you could have withdrawals from pot. I kept finding myself self-destructing if I tried to stop smoking. It was a vicious cycle. I was seeing a therapist and when I finally came clean (hehe) about my using, a big lightbulb turned on and she knew how to help me. I thought I was literally going crazy. I checked myself into treatment and 31 days later, I found myself at my first "real" NA meeting. I was hooked ever since.
Just remember: the urges to smoke, the crazy emotional rollercoaster, the whole nine yards... it's all "normal" and you can get through it! :)
I used to be a huge stoner. what i like to call a *functioning stoner*. i was forced to quit cold turkey when i was diagnosed bipolar. turns out i was self medicating. i think it might be good for you to speak to a professional to make sure there are no underlying mental issues that are driving you to persue this addiction. you have to be very careful though. when i quit cold turkey, i turned to pills. now i'm in the middle of detoxing. just remember, it's a plant. don't let it control you. you hold all the power to your own sobriety. stay on here, talk about it. when you want to smoke, write instead. i wish you all the luck in the world.
Yeah I know what your going through. I started with weed when I was really young and it escalated from there. I kicked the hard stuff back in December but was still saying well weeds not dope so its ok. Its taken me 3 months to realize that while im making a lot of progress i still wasnt where I wanted to be and it was the weed holding me back. Im on day 3 completely clean and not turning back now. Even though ive been going crazy finally being sober, Id rather be clear headed and crazy then in a fog and letting life pass me by.
