because theres such great helpers here for those who are struggling.
I'm real thankful those of you who have stuck around now for a long time and just keep giving. And those of you who struggle day in day out thats ok, and I hope your accepting right where your at and being totally honest with yourself about that because , at least for me that piece of the recipe was so important, and I didnt get that for a long time , struggling with recovery, relasping all the time. Then I began to accept what was happening and why then I saw what I needed to do, I HAD to give myself totally to this program and to a higher power, whether I believed 100% or not I HAD TO give my life over, then I began to stay clean and sober, and I did what the program suggested , things have gotten a lot better day by day.
Can you see grass grow ? thats about what this is like in my recovery, watching grass grow...
Along with learning how to live and depending on a higher power in our lives, that dependency makes us independent, you will experience that after some time clean, first we have to stay clean for awhile then you see how things change.
I watched alot of B/W movies this month because it was the annual '31 days of Oscars on TCM'.. and what hit me most this year was the movies that were made and won Oscars surrounding this topic. Recovery. The films were not all sugar-coated like the usual B/W Hollywood era films are known to be. I got to see how this all began sorta speak. How AA then NA began. America has been fighting this whole addiction thing for a long long time. The struggle to end all this madness isnt new. I dont know where Im going with this, Im just sayin...
