I have bben having a rough time sleeping even on my psyc meds they are going to taper me off my benzos due to an admit to the er last night I was trying to get some sleep a friend gave me 2 bars and some blood pressure meds so I could sleep (been without sleep for over 6 days) I am wore out in everyway possible is this a relapse?
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to not hide anything I took those meds and blood ptessure got so low I ended up on the floor passed out when Iregained awarness???? I called the ambulance for help as Iwas on the floor not knowing if I hurt my back they had to break down the door to gain access to me bcause my blood pressure was so low they had to transport for super vision did not take these drugs to get high keep in mind just needed sleep currently without a sponsor so Gramps really would treasure your advise about now
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Hey Manon! Sorry to her about your situation.Hope you are okay.I wrote some stuff on your PM, but I can only say thru my experience, that whenever being clean is not our top priority many other situations start to sneak in our program.Staying clean must always come first."In times of Illness"(GOOGLE) is a great read for some clarity and only you know in your heart what your reasons were etc.(you didnt want to get high was made clear)I know when we do make it through rough times and do not use it reenforces our program.Clean time and relapse are personal issues(my stuff)I WOULD ALSO SUGGEST IN THOSE TYPES OF SITUATIONS TO GET MEDICAL ADVICE AND HELP,IF WE START SELF MEDICATING THAT ALWAYS LEADS TO PROBLEMS.The point here really is,whether you relapsed or not,,,,today is another day to get back at it....There are many circumstances in your personal situation I believe that bring you to different conclusions.We have to be very careful that this insidious(sneaky,overtakes without our awareness,lurking)illness doesnt let us start rationalizing our use of anything that may be detrimental to our personal recoveries. Im not sure what "2 bars" are"(hershey's candy,slang for something else?).Let us know how your doing, and be vigilante!!! peace my friend!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
One of the best things that I do in my recovery is stay honest and open with my MD & Shrink about EVERYTHING. If I needed help sleeping, when my depression had me thinking "off thoughts", when my anxiety was spinning too fast to "turn over" and when I had some surgery and was going to need a pain med, I asked my MD to call my Shrink and talk it over.
It was my own thinking that got me into this mess (addiction) & I'm not gonna make that mistake again if I can help it.
my shrink is fully aware of the situationb is now working with me trying to get meds straight there is a god I found him last night at a celebrate recovery meeting a biblically based 12 step group I founf HOME again
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
