too many people always controling my life and emotions hate laying down at nite too early because i cant take all the thinking going thru my head hate my life what it has become dont feel much of anything need inspiration
Things will get better as long as you don't use and go to meetings. While you're doing that, you could look for a sponsor and start working the steps. Hang in there and keep coming back!
The solution is in the steps. I well know the feeling of being tormented by my own thoughts. It was the story of my life for many years. By surrendering to my disease and working the NA program I have attained a level of peace of mind i never thought possible. I'm still a work in progress for sure, but my worst day today is still better than what I put myself through during my active addiction.
A while back I went through a nasty three days of withdrawals from a prescribed medication that my doc & I decided I should try living without, to maybe get a level baseline of where my recovery was at.
Those three days I was feeling pretty psycho. One thing worked better than anything else for me. Prayer. Lots of humble, selfless, open-hearted prayer. I said "God, these feelings, these thoughts are too much for me and I know you are big enough, strong enough and loving enough to take some of them from me." over and over again.
I hope that you send up a flare and peace finds you.
welcome I know exactly how your feeling I too was in that situation but thanks to these good people here on this web site they have helped me become the better person that I really am. But me being on drugs didnt have a chance to notice wat a good guy I really wuz. But you too will over come this too just as long as you want to seek help from people. I wish you luck on watever you choose
