Ive been out of treatment for a week now and i just feel like i am going insane. I have been to treatment before and got out and stayed clean for a while but this time has just been completely different. I am on a emotional rollercoaster and i keep calling my sponsor and everyone in my support network but nothing is seeming to click. I do not wanna pick up. I know after i pick up it will do nothing but start that deadly cycle all over again. Im just tired of feeling this way. And when i mean tired of feeling this way i mean just tired of feeling. Period. Im starting to push all of my loved ones away and i feel like everyone is getting tired of all of this. If anyone could share any experience, stregnth, and hope that would be amazing. God bless you all!
I HEAR YOUR PAIN AND YOUR FRUSTRATION.Are you taking any type of other prescribed medications?When you speak of tired of "it all" that is a scary area.We have been on the road of devastation and total defeat but there is a solution,starting with "Just not using" no matter what.You have a sponsor and a network so you can no longer say your not sure where or what to do..Want this and be willinging to do whatever it takes..It is our actions that others see and not what we say but what we do. Of course others will afraid, frustrated,angry and all other emotions.I have a 24 year old who is in recovery from heroin addiction since he was 17 and our lives were ripped apart by the wreakage he was leaving..,but through support,practising spiritual principles and trusting in our Higher Power we take it a minute,hour,day at a time..Glad you showed up here,but face to face is soo much better and the "real will to surrender is totally is necessary to begin moving forward.Believe me ,there is another life over and above using and all that comes with it. For 25 years I searched until ONLY by Gods grace I was given one last chance to surrender .Come join us in a new way to live,day at a time.It does get better,but it takes effort.Let us know how you are doing,we do care but we can only carry our message of hope and our promise of freedom,I pray you make the decison.....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
"the solution is in the steps" In step one we surrender to the fact to that we can't use drugs successfully so we give them up completely. Now what? There is a big empty space once filled by drugs. We are feeling things, our body chemistry is different. What is their left to do? Step 2. "we came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity" Or in your words...to get you off the roller coaster ride. Step 2 is IMHO the most powerful of all the steps.. without 'coming to believe' in a power greater than yourself and greater than your addiction, your recovery is in serious jeopardy. Especially at this juncture. If a belief in God is to foreign to you at this point, then use NA meetings, a group, or the fellowship as a whole as your higher power. Thousands of people have gotten clean that way. but you really need to find something to believe in and some people who can be there when you call.
Things will get better as long as you don't use. Keep calling your sponsor and other friends in recovery. Got to lots of meetings. Pray. Work the steps. Don't use.
all you got to do is just keep it in your head that you want to remain clean and that you dont ever want to use. and things should get better for you. cuz really its all in your head that you want to use its not that your body really needs it k... I wish you luck
It helps me to remember that every urge to use passes, whether I give in to it or not. When I'm hungry, I eat. When I'm angry, I pray. When I'm lonely, I reach out and When I'm tired, I sleep.
H.A.L.T. helps me stay right and so does reading NA books, working the steps, getting to meetings, having a sponsor and using him and having a sponsee to set a good example for.
