well the roomie moves out today I am not sure how I feel about it I am grateful at some aspects I miss being alone, I won't have to hear the drama that I so avoid whenever possible so I won't have to hear he said she said bullshit nemore so that part is great the part I wiill miss is having someone to talk to who I seem to get along great with I am gonna get lonely again I have come out of a depression but none the lessI am afraid that when this person goes I will resort to living in my bed room again I don't wanna get depressed again I have been doing some what okay it actually has been nice to have someone around but the drama that comes with this person I am way ready for it to leave I never thought I would want a roomate I can tell my trust level is down cause I am hgiding things so not to be found so I don't know I think it will be nice to have my apt to myself again I am really not looking forward to the move but I can't stay here I don't feel safe its gonna sky rocket my portion of the rent but here is some good news there is a place here in tulsa that does like day labor and I was offered a job picking up ppl and taking them to the work site so I wioll have a little extra money in hand which will help I am kinda proud of myself getting a "real" job after so long anyway just needed to clear my head love ya'll and hope this finds you blessed
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
oh how funny! i just wrote you from ur other post. well. im glad you decided to move the roomie out.
also, you getting this job is a good thing. it gets you out and around other human beings. sitting alone in ur bedroom isnt healthy. i know. ive been there. oh boy have i ever.
its called isolation. which is a a deadly trigger for me to pick up and use!! heck. its a big trigger for many addicts. anyways, it seems God opened a door while u were closing another. this is good thing. right? feeling independent. making money. getting out. feeling like ur among the human race again.
