We regretted the past, dreaded the future, and werent too thrilled about the present.
Basic Text, p. 7
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Until we experience the healing that happens when we work the Twelve Steps, it is doubtful that we can find a statement more true than the quote above. Most of us come to NA hanging our heads in shame, thinking about the past and wishing we could go back and change it. Our fantasies and expectations about the future may be so extreme that, on our first date with someone, we find ourselves wondering which lawyer well use for the divorce. Almost every experience causes us to remember something from the past or begin projecting into the future.
At first, its difficult to stay in the moment. It seems as though our minds wont stop. We have a hard time just enjoying ourselves. Each time we realize that our thoughts are not focused on whats happening right now, we can pray and ask a loving God to help us get out of ourselves. If we regret the past, we make amends by living differently today; if we dread the future, we work on living responsibly today.
When we work the steps and pray each time we discover were not living in the present, well notice that those times arent occurring as often as they used to. Our faith will help us live just for today. Well have hours, even days, when our full attention is focused on the current moment in time, not the regrettable past or fearful future.
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Just for today: When I live fully in each moment, I open myself to joys that might otherwise escape me. If I am having trouble, I will ask a loving God for help.
It is important for me to keep my focus on the moment at hand, rather than worrying about the future or regretting the past. Life becomes overwhelming for me when I get out of the moment.
Of all the things our program teaches, staying in the day is both the most difficult and the most rewarding. When I am able to stay 'just for today' things seem to go along just fine. Let me wander into remorse for the past or fear of the future and it's back to shitsville.
