I am new to this board, but have been around the rooms for awhile. I am a chronic relapser, and seem to lack the self - esteem to really put in the work needed to recover. I started seeing a psycologist, as well as making meetings this time. Any suggestions? 1 day clean
Hey Brian! Our suggestions are what you hear in the rooms,show up,listen for a sponsor,get in the solution (steps)(with a sponsor)share as if you life depends on it and give back to the best of your ability,a day at a time.Nothing novel or new but "it works" got to put in the work though.Glad you made it back,many I knew didn't.Stick around we need you.Nice meeting you ,glad you are reaching out and getting to a meeting.
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I too was a chronic relapser who was wallowing in shame and guilt for a long time. I had to prove to myself that I truly was powerless over my addiction, even once I decided to work a 12 step program. 20 days clean and I used again....Yep, powerless alright!!!! Going on 21 days now and I am no longer feeling that tremendous weight of guilt and shame. It is still there, but at least it is bearable and getting less overwhelming every day. The difference for me? I go to at least one meeting daily, sometimes more. I have a sponsor that I talk to daily. I talk to my Higher Power, though I have not clearly defined him/her/it for myself yet. Each morning I ask for help for myself and for all of those like me for 24 hrs of sobriety, and for help to be a good person today. I give thanks before I go to bed at night for the 24 hrs I received. I am finding that the experience, strength and hope that others share both here and in meetings gives me hope. Hope is something I was missing in my life for so long I didn't remember what it was. So be thankful for your 24hrs and congratulate yourself. Go to meetings. 90 in 90 seems insane when you hear it, that's what I thought, but it really does help. Find someone you can relate to that you can call if you want to use. Decide to "work" the steps, and ask your sponsor to help you. To my utter amazement and new found hope, it works. Good luck. Peace.
your doing good if you got your one day lets make it too days and then we will go from there. try going to alot of meetings as many as possible. And please keep us updated on you i wish you the best of luck.
In the beginning of my journey to recovery, I never understood what "Just for Today" meant. I came in and out of the rooms for years. I went to in patient treatment four times and completed the programs every on of those times because I just wanted recovery, I wanted to be happy, to be free from active addiction. I had all the tools and I knew everything I was supposed to do. I knew to have a sponsor, I knew to change people, places and things, I knew to keep going to meetings, but I would go back out. See today I am clean for 18 months and I know now that I continued to beat myself up in the past because I wanted to hurt more. I didn't think that I deserved those good things that life has to offer. I am grateful that I have my brother who is a recovering addict with 13 years of recovery and he is the one who helped me to realize that we can be addicted to emotions also. It is those negative feelings that pull me back into active addiction. As long as I keep positive people in my life and continue to keep those feelings under control I will be okay. I enjoy life as it is today. The past is just that and there is no going back to change it and tomorrow is not here yet so there is no need to worry about it, as long as I do what I know is right today, I believe that my higher power will carry me through. We all face the same dilemma's. I hope I helped you and I will pray for you. Don't leave before the miracle happens.
Well I say first of all do you have family that you care about? If so then this is what you need to do think about them and their feelings toward you on using and then think about what happens when you use,and then last but not least wat is gonna happen to you if you continue to use cuz you and I both kno that using is not an eternity thing eventually ur gonna get sick and die from using so its best to just quit now. If you need too seek help with going to church... and ya who am to preach to you Im nobody but I do like to try and help..so I just wanted to throw out these few help tips. Well I hope they help you out and I wish the best for you just keep trying and soon you will be a clean and sober person........ Good Luck
