In retrospect, many of us realize that when we used, our ideas of fun were rather bizarre. Some of us would get dressed up and head for the local club. We would dance, drink, and do drugs until the sun rose. On more than one occasion, gun battles broke out. What we then called fun, we now call insanity.
Today, our notion of fun has changed. Fun to us today is a walk along the ocean, watching the dolphins frolic as the sun sets behind them. Fun is going to an NA picnic, or attending the comedy show at an NA convention. Fun is getting dressed up to go to the banquet and not worrying about any gun battles breaking out over who did what to whom.
Through the grace of a Higher Power and the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, our ideas of fun have changed radically. Today when we are up to see the sun rise, its usually because we went to bed early the night before, not because we left a club at six in the morning, eyes bleary from a night of drug use. And if thats all we have received from Narcotics Anonymous, that would be enough.
My sense of fun was so warped during my active addiction, that I thought I couldn't have any fun unless I were high on drugs. I couldn't enjoy a movie, a party, a concert, or any other fun thing unless I were also loaded. Thanks to NA, I now can enjoy many things today without the use of drugs.
I agree, there was NO fun in my active addiction...just isolation and because of this program I can go socialize with members at the meetings or call a friend and laugh. It is great I can laugh now and my life is amazing.
Fun --only when I was holding(and sometimes not even then)...if not trauma,anxiety and frustration.I no longer live like that ,thanks to God and incorporation of spiritual principles in my life.
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
