Do we understand that we have no real control over drugs?
Basic Text, p. 18
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At first, many of us may have thought the First Step required no actionwe just surrender and go on to Step Two. But Step One does require action!
The action we take in the First Step will be evident in the way we live, even from our first day clean. If we truly believe that we are powerless over our addiction, we will not choose to be around drugs. To continue to live with or associate with practicing addicts may indicate a reservation in our program. An absolute belief that the First Step applies to us will insure that we clear our homes of all drugs and paraphernalia.
As time goes on, well not only continue with the basics but add new actions to our First Step repertoire. Well learn to feel our feelings rather than trying to control them. Well stop trying to be our own and only guides on our recovery journey; self-sponsorship will cease. Well begin looking to a Power greater than ourselves more and more for spiritual satisfaction rather than trying to fill that void with something else.
Surrender is only the beginning. Once we surrender, we need to learn how to live in the peace we have found.
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Just for today: I will take all the action necessary to practice the First Step. I truly believe it applies to me.
Been going to meetings and reading books, read the steps & traditions many times every day. Come here, check out the daily topic. Last night I asked someone I feel I can relate to to be my sponsor. Scary as hell for both of us. I am just beginning to work the steps. She has 6 years of clean time and her sobriety at times has been a struggle for her(her words, not mine). She talked to her sponsor and was told that this must be "God's" will, her time to have her first sponsee. We have just decided that we'll go with the flow and if it isn't working for either one of us, we'll call it temporary & grow from there. I am scared as hell to actually start working these steps. I am also grateful that I have found that I don't have to do this on my own, that there is a process that works if I put the time and effort and honesty into it that it requires. Anyway, enough of my ramblings. Thanks Dave R for doing the daily topic posts. Peace.
