this past november at my church we had a retreat for all the women. it was called the womens renewal. it was a time for us to come and renew our faith and our selves. i was a part of the planning team. there were 13 of us. i was the youngest by far. and they were more of my mothers than my sisters of christ. well today one of my moms passed away. she had cancerous tumors in her stomach and an infection they couldnt find. i got a call at 4 saying she had passed and all i could do was scream. she let me into her life, told me her life story, struggles, successes, and she was one person i could talk to and not be scared. she was probably in her sixties. a wife, a mother, a sister, and a grandmother. and my friend. i dont deal with death very good and all i do is cry and cry and cry. i dont eat. i cant go to work. and i dont even get out of bed. its hard to think that at the beginning of this month she was alive and healthy laughing and smiling, and as the weeks went on she grew weaker and sicker and died today. it came out of nowhere and it wasnt suppose to happen. all i could do was sit here. i couldnt have done anything and i feel helpless.
i havent posted music in a LONGGGGGG time so here ya go.
-- Edited by LizC on Friday 28th of January 2011 11:52:05 PM
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So sorry for your loss. You did everything. You shared, you listened, you opened your heart and gave her your love. May you find strength in your Higher Power and the memories and smiles it sounds like you shared with your treasured "mom". It is ok for you to be angry for a time, but don't hold on to it, it will eat you alive. Own it then give it away, and continue to carry on the work you shared with the one you loved so deeply. The world needs young people like you. Peace.
In support and prayer Liz! You can still be with her,heart to heart,try and cherish the memories of the time you had together.I can only suggest getting with your"sisters"and lift up your"mom" as from your share you know that death is just a stopping point until you are with the God of your understanding. peace....
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Hi Liz, I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like she was a real support for you and now she is gone. But stomach cancer is a horrible, painful disease. She kept a brave face but clearly she was suffering more than she let on. She is better off now. When the grieving period ends, you can rejoice knowing that her worldly trials are over. Your a tough cookie kiddo. Remember her fondly and continue on your journey.
She was a living example for you and how wonderful people can be and how wonderful you could be living by her example.
Theres a reason for everything, you were meant to meet and be together and get to experience her, her purpose was fullfilled in your life, her hand and heart touched you in a way no other could, making you a better person for it, do you see ?
sorry for ur loss i know they say time heels all wounds but i dont think so my mom is also sick in the hospital im scared to death of losing her i lost my dad at a young age all i could say is pray to god he will help you get through the bad times stay strong.
