just found out today that my son pysical therapist has confined him to a scooter he will only be 18 in sept life isn't fair isn't it enough that I suffer not my child too~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
I am sorry to hear about your son. I have an 18y/o son who has special needs. We have known since very young (6 months) that he had problems. diagnosed at 5y/o with autism. Will always be a child, now in an adult body. It pains me every day, hurts my heart for his losses and the life he will not know. It is guilt over the possibility that something I have done in my past could have led to his problems that has ultimately led me to the depths of despair and the grips of addiction. I have found hope from that despair in the likes of the people in this room and in the rooms of the meetings I have forced myself to walk into. I pray that you find that hope too. I pray that I can keep it. Our children need us more than most.
Manon , I am sorry to hear about your son being confined to a scooter for a long time.I agree it is not fair ,but it is as it is .Life can be very cruel to us and our loved ones.Remember keep strong and don"t use .Your son needs your strength and you need your recovery.
my thoughts are racing I need the hell outta this old apt I am ready to get the fuck inmy own little whole so everyone would leave me alone i have been in tears all day this scooter thing is really getting to me I Mom has enough to handle with me neing sick I am so done i wanna it just over suicidal ideation are killing me
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon, It is natural for you to grieve your son's loss of mobility, and something you will probably do every day. I grieve my sons disability daily, and have been for many years. I also love him dearly and have been blessed to be given such a special child. Someone once told me that God only gives special children to special people. At the time, it made me angry. I have come to believe it over the years of my sons life. As I said earlier, our children need us more than most. I hope and pray you can find some comfort from your pain. The post by Kenh is more true than you know. Your son needs you to give him strength and love. May you find it for yourself also. Peace.
God is not a democrat,, its always rules, rules and more rules we humans need to follow.. God's Rules are not negotiable, Gods pain to us is not transferrable and Gods will is always un-changeable....
Askin for meanins from the God of Dogmatic Religion is frightfully disappointin....
Thats why I reject those Gods and instead believe that od is the Force or Power that keeps me clean and serene ! A day clean is a day won and inspite of all that happens in the course of a day, if Ive stayed clean then Im doing right !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
When I am overwhelmed by a feelijgnthat seems like it's going to kill me I remember my last withdrawals and it reminds me that yes...this is something happening TO me and it WILL pass.
Suicide is NOT an option. You would break his heart as surely as his loss of mobility is breaking yours. BTW how does he feel about his loss? It really isn't about us, no matter that it feels that way. His scooter allows him to remain somewhat mobile, in years past he may have had to be confined to bed and a wheelchair. I know it's a hard journey, dig for the blessings. In his eyes you are his blessing. Hope this helps even a little.
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suicide is always an option for me I have tried 7 timde in the past 2 years over a bunch of shit i can'tt get outta my mind mind and you tell me it's not an option BULLSHIT!
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Speaking from experience here. While suicide may seem like an option to you, to those you leave behind, it is a grief beyond measure as we are left to wonder why, in spite of all of our best efforts and our deepest love, we were unable to save you. Your mother will feel it the most. Believe me, I watch my mother dying a slow death daily as she beats herself up over not being able to help my brother. There are 6 others of us who lose a piece of her daily and can do nothing about it. It hurts. And it pisses me off too. Lost a brother, brother-in-law and nephew to suicide. Please do not do it.
I know all too well the phenomenon of not being able to get out of your own racing mind. It is like a prison, hell on earth. I get it. I have been there so many times. I can not guarantee many things, but I can guarantee that it will get better. It will ease up. It will. It always will. I can also guarantee you that you are not alone, even though you are probably completely convinced that you are. You can absolutely get past this. Get mad at what is keeping you down. Get mad at the part of your brain you feel you can't control. Get mad enough to insist on taking it back! Take it back! Bless you Manon!
im so sorry you have to go through that just thank god that he is still liveing and you never now he might walk again. just keep praying and stay strong. we are all here for you.
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