I'm Annie, 27 years old. I was using roxies and xanax for 4 years daily. I'd also use meth or coke whenever i got my hands on it. I'm recently out of jail(first time and hopefully last). I've been sober since Aug 19th 2010, the day I was arrested. Doing okay with cravings but having a hard time confronting all the messed up stuff I did when I was using. Especially the things I did to hurt the people I loved most. Having a hard time forgiving myself.
CONGRATS!I DETOXED IN JAIL AS WELL.FOUND AN N/A AA GROUP AND HAVE BEEN SOBER ALMOST 4 YEARS NOW.THANKS FOR SHARING AND PLEASE CONTINE TO POST.WE CANT CHANGE THE PAST BUT I PROMISE THE N/A BOOK,ITS MEMBERS,THE STEPS AND SUPPORT QILL HELP WITH OUR FUTURE....
Welcome, I'm new here, too. I've 12-Stepped in AA. Steps 4-9 felt painful and good at the same time...like tattoos They are the steps that helped me "clean up my spiritual house".
Welcome. I totally understand feelings of guilt and shame. They along with self hatred were my daily companions. Then my higher power led me to the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous where I found a great sponsor to guide me through the steps. It changed my life.
Welcome. I will pray for your shame to be released. I too know shame, for years. Someone told me that living in a place of shame will keep you sick. I relapsed because I felt so ashamed which only deepened my shame. I have mostly been able to let my shame go. It really serves no good purpose. Good Luck and Godspeed.
well i am also new to this all i can say is stay strong and dont let nothing bring you down. it is a struggle but you can do it and we are here for you. ive been clean since august 13 2010 and it has been hard but im still going.
