I gave up 6 years of clean time about 7 months ago,and to date i can't put 7 days together of clean time the desire to stay clean is not as strong as i used to be my sponsor i have talked to and another recovering addict when i'm at work if i have money i can't wait to get off i can get a beer.
Welcome Back. You are either an addict or you are not, only you can say. You either want what NA has to offer or you don't, only you can decide. NA has only one promise, you don't have to use if you don't want to. Right now seems you want to use more than you want to make the effort not to use.
It really is quite simple to stay Clean, don't use no matter what. Didn't say easy, but simple.
Honesty, open mindedness and willingness are key. If you want what we have to offer, and are willing to make the effort to get it, go to 90 meetings in 90 days. NA works if you want it and work it.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
6 years shot to hell It may seem that way and sure you don't have the same Clean Time birthday. But I suspect you may have still gained some benefits from the program, regardless what your Clean Time birthday is today. Doesn't matter if it's 6 years or 30 years, Just Today is all any of us have. I am Clean today, one day at a time.
Give yourself a break and don't beat yourself up (too much). We are addicts and love you anyway. Get back on the program if you don't want to use, get back to meetings.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
Welcome. I hope you find the honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness to get back to meetings and start doing the things you need to do to stay clean.
-- Edited by Dave R on Thursday 20th of January 2011 06:34:39 AM
I may not know a lot about getting and staying clean, but I am an expert on guilt. I can tell you that guilt will push you down and make you feel worthless, and it will push you to use again and again. Don't worry about the past or how many days. Start fresh today. Every day is a new chance, a new gift you have been given. The past is over. Leave it there.
Lewis,Don't beat yourself up over your relapse. I just goy my six years clean on Jan 10 2011 .This past year was the hardest for me,complacency set in. As I see it you have done the hardest thing admitting you relapsed .That is hard to do. Start again just like you did before ,it ian't easy but you know what to do.
