As we realize our need to be forgiven, we tend to be more forgiving. At least we know that we are no longer intentionally making life miserable for people.
Basic Text, pp. 39-40
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In our addiction we often treated others badly, sometimes deliberately finding ways to make their lives miserable. In our recovery, we may still have a tendency to pass judgment on others actions because we think we know how that person should behave. But as we progress in our recovery we often find that, to accept ourselves, we must accept those around us.
It may be difficult to watch as someones insanity manifests itself. But if we detach ourselves from the problem, we can start living in the solution. And if we feel affected by anothers actions, we can extend the principle of forgiveness.
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Just for today: I will strive to forgive rather than be forgiven. I will try to act in such a way that I feel worthy of self-love.
This comes right on time for me. I had a fairly traumatic childhood. My relationship with my mother has been troublesome for years. I've been having nightmares since early recovery and quiet honestly, what has transpired I cannot find it to be 'forgiveable'....perhaps I need to move further along in my recovery before I can even think about forgiving her. What she has done to me, in my mind, is so colossal that forgiving her does not seem like something I can do right now. I can, however, start forgiving myself, stop passing judgment on others.
Acting in a way that "I feel worthy of self-love" is gonna be difficult.....but I'm working on it.
