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Samara


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I cant seem to break away from cocaine and i seem to be dragged back into it by my friend who supplies me, Advice?
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Im 24 and 

i started using cocaine at 14, I come from a very dysfunctional family but after getting a good job i came off it and stopped hanging out with those type of friends,especially this certain guy who got really pissed off that i wasn't around anymore, We now hang out again and he supplies me with coke. My guy friend who i was always close with, He supplies it to me for free, He is very intimidating to my friends and he has the potential to be dangerous, but we are super close, He kept saying the whole night that i am like his baby sister and that he would go through fire for me etc. When he was talking to his friends i would be on the table dancing with my friends behind him, Grab his hands and start to make him dance then he would carry me around his shoulders dancing and i couldn't stop laughing, deep down i know i did that to get more off of him. My friend kept telling guys that if they broke my heart he'd break their necks. My girl friend said that im just rebelling against what i became & i could be depressed, and im doing it by taking drugs and partying. That it is my way of escaping from what is happening & unfortunately my friend is helping me & will anything to keep me close to him. At times i look at my guy friend and i know that im only keeping him close to me so i get my free supply and he doesnt even now it. I know he is bad for me but i cant keep to break away from him and i love to keep him close to me. Is my friend right, that im just acting out to easy the pain. I cant tell if im coming or going away more, I feel lost. Advice?



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Hi, and welcome.
Your in a tough spot. But like many of the decisions we are faced with when trying to get clean yours is simple, but not easy.
You have decide which you want more, your 'friend' or living clean.
I really don't see how you can have both.

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Mike M


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Hi Samara, Welcome.

Something brought you here. Only you can decide if you want to get Clean (stop using.) If you have the Desire to stop using, find a live NA meeting and go. If need be call a Helpline and ask if someone can take you to your first meeting. If you want what we have to offer, a life free of active addiction, know you are not alone.
Here's a link to the NY NA Region.
http://newyorkna.org/meetings/

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I agree with Avid,Do you need that friend or do you want to change and live clean ? One you have to get rid of all the drugging friends,they aren't friends if they are helping feed you habit.A real friend might take you to a NA meeting.Everyone at those meetings are addicts ,we all support each others recovery , that why it works.It won't hurt to give it a try.The withdrawl part is hard no doubt ,try and find a program that will help you quit and show you a new way to live.

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wuzspun


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Friends don't give someone with a drug problem drugs. That's an associate.

Change: people , places and things.

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LOOSE the friend and find new friends in NA this is the only way your gonna stay clean.

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Samara,
My name is lewis and i feel your pain i also have a good friend who comes by regarly with drugs i can't say no,i have asked him to respect my decision but once i see he may have a woman all bets are off,i'm struggling i ask god for help i no he will   just stay focused it will get better

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