this agoraphobia is biting me in the ass evre since I have come to terms with reality of the situations in my life over the past 2 years fearinbg everything and wanting to run but afraid to move away cause my family is all I got support wise I have a guy in my life we have been off and on since the summer he is helping out alot when it goes for time for me to get outta the house and accomplish things I get on his nerves a bit I can see it but he has good intenetions he got mad when he saw my kitchen clean cause he knows how much I love to cook never been big at picking up after words but I do enjoy cooking expesially when someone is here to enjoy it with me... I am surrounded by a wal mart and on the other side a mall which leaves me pretty trapped thank god christmas shopping is done now gotta fix the cars and deal with all that mess but the holiday is gonna afta come and go first there is stuff I wanna do or I try to get out to do but then panick sets ioin b4 I get outta the parking lot Seriously thinking about another apt complex in town the layout is bigger and god know I amgrowing outta this apt that and I might not be so worried bout who knows where I am I don't think its an issue that is pressing atm but should it ariose I will do what is needed to insure my safety I am so blessed here by all the friends (family) here at mip and all that have helped me thru this crisis so Christmas isn't a total loss but still BAH HUM BUG lol any way hope as the holiday nears you find the peace that is offerend and promised to you
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Thanks for sharing Manon! Glad you're still here. I've been off in relationship land and am finding a little balance now.
You're a big part of this group and I love coming here every chance I get. I have a new supervisor who doesn't see this as an acceptable work activity so I try to add alittle at lunch and breaks and keep up.
Now that I know you like to cook I will say again "Bake some cookies" LOL I love the smell of the house after a sheet or two of butter cookies have been in the oven. And that chubby lil pillsbury boy makes it soooooooooo easy.
