My bf is an addict.  DOC is heroin, but he will go to alcohol, or coke if he doesn't have that.  He has gone to percocets and had an oxy problem a few years ago.  When we first got together I thought it was only the alcohol.  I am really not writing about him though.  I am using MIP for me, I go to the alanon page and work my program there.  I just wanted to say that I appreciate your shares here.  It is good to see the other side of things.  He has been in rehab 3 times and been to at least as many detox programs.  He had a prescription for suboxene, but when he takes that, he drinks instead.  He has blacked out from the alcohol many times and just last week, he did and has no idea what else he did that day.  I was with him and I had no idea he was in a black out.  I am learning to detach with love.  I love him and I hate the disease.  He is really a sweet person, he helps around the house and does a lot.  I am learning to use the alanon tools and that nothing changes if nothing changes.  I do have  a goal for me, if he doesn't eventually get help, my plan B....  I remember to not take it personally and I also remember that I can't try to control him in anyway anymore.  I have codependency and ACOA issues as well, so I am working on all of that with my sponsor....Anyway, I am working my program, I have a sponsor and I just wanted to say, thank you for your shares.  I hope its ok that I came here.  Thank you!