I am trying to figure out a different way of dealing with my back pain and just my past i am an oxycontin heroin opiate addict started when i was 12 with methadone and gradually moved on to harder drugs done every kind and only like pain killers its to hard to feel like this all the time i have been trying to do it cold turkey but its to hard i relapsed today and feel like the only way i can get out is if i had suboxen to ween me off which is still substituting but honestly i can not handle this lonliness and sickness...i hope anyone of you have advice. i dont have a hard life i work i am active i just supress everything with getting as high as i can scary as it may be i do as much as i canto feel good just need somebodys wisdom. thank you i will keep you in my prayers
Memories sharp as daggers pierce into the flesh of today
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Have you gone to any NA meetings? I'm sure you'll find people there who have experienced something similar and have learned to deal with it without drugs.
I use ibuprophen and other non narcotic drugs for my back and I have chronic pain and arthritis in my spine, live with pain most of the time . I'm a painter so my work is physical , its not easy.
If your physically withdrawing from the drugs probably best you get a doctor to help you do that.
The mental part is also a spiritual part, you see no way of lioving without the help of narcotics, thats what this program is for to show and teach you how to handle that.
Start reading the NA book and get to meetings, get a sponsor and work the steps with him. Work the program or recovery, this is a mind and body thing but our spirits need healing to , we need a lot of support but also willingness, honesty and openmindeness of our own.
Well my mate...my experience is that most people with drug problems confuse and jumble the issues. I don't know how real your 'back pain' is but most addicts I've known don't really what actual pain their bodies are in until well into their detox..or after their detox.. Lifelong rationalizations often fall by the wayside after the person is 'clean' for a good while. The first and only problem is getting clean and in NA that means drug free.. You need to detox. Many people have to go into an institution at least for a while to detox properly. First things first....Detox! If there is genuine, realistic, medically authenticated pain that requires treatment after that....well deal with that then with NA advice.. Best of luck...most people will ignore this advice...some will act on it. The ones who act on it go on to change their lives completely...the others are the statistics... Mike
The pain is real which just compells me to want to do them more and in abundance which is frustrating cuz i let myself down i had a grand mal seizure in october which has caused my back to constantly ache and bother me....the mental part of all this is difficult as well i start doing good then fall back into it. when i was going to NA meetings i was doing good i just need to get back into them and not go astray cuz everytime i do the same thing happens a relapse and each time i get deeper and harder into what i was doing i appreciate all your advice and i am taking all of it to heart i will pray for you all and thank you so much cant say this will be easy but i know that i can do this without failing 8 years of my life has been devoted to opiates and i have had enough thank you all so much
One Sweet World
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With the warmth of your arms you saved meOh I'm killing loneliness with you.
