What a strange thing life is.....

I was wishing and hoping to be in a loving relationship and met this woman.
Its been a month now and we have been making lots of adjustments.....

During times of self-doubt, Im saying to myself
"this seems to be arranged by God, so who am I to question ?"

Im careful to stay within recovery limits.
I needed a break from the hectic NA schedules I had and a months time was spent dating, courtying and .oving this woman as best as I can....

Now Im realizing I need to be self-supporting and get back to work.
There are also meetings Im missing. The miraculous part is the phone calls or messages I get from addicts in recovery.
Then again, there is my yound daughter and aged mother to look after.
The dental appointments and health checks need to be done.
And here is this woman demanding my time.

So Im trying to sort things out and do things that need to be done.
Theres also plans for extended travels and we need to sort out our differences first....

And all the time Im thinking
"I need to place recovery first, always"

The Steps are the solution, the way oput of the deadly dis-ease of addiction.
And yes, this rel;aionship can become an addiction too,,, with all that intenseness, withdrawls, angers and frustrations.....

Im saying the Third Step Prayer often,,,,
Take my will and my life,
Guide me in my recovery,
Show me how to live

I thank yall at MIP for being there to share with..
Hugs and see yall soon.....