This is my 10th day of not using. I got over the physical hell in 3-4 days. But I feel like a limp rag doll. I have ZERO energy and it is so tempting to get refills (Norco and oxy) so I can at least get through Christmas (no gifts bought or any preparations at all for lots of upcoming events). BTW, no one has any clue about my addiction so I can't explain to people. I used last on Thanksgiving morning so I could cook dinner. I have been taking vitamins , minerals, supplements, even forcing myself to take short walks daily, and eating healthfully, even tho' I have no appetite. How long does this awful lethargy last? [And I am not even going into my constant mental battle with depression and anxiety, that's a separate issue, altho the drugs do mask those a lot.}. Just to empty the dishwasher is a momentous task.
Congrats on your getting your life back!Being involved in a local n\a group,actually participating in meetings,getting a sponsor,working the steps ,eating right,sleep and daily prayer works for me 3 and a half years now.And not one person outside of my group thought i would or could stay sober.I am new to this group also. There is no local group where i'm living now and I have seen great help to those like us on this site.You will be in my prayers.Keep coming back!...Gary
Just remember if you do get the refills you'll have to go through this nightmare all over again and it's not worth it. You've made the decision to stop and you've made it through the worst of it now. Just hang in there and just don't give yourself permission to pick up. Your head is gonna try anything to get you to say just one more but don't listen to it. Your depression and anxiety are gonna be more acute for a little while but just being aware of this can help to combat that negative thinking. Get to a face to face meeting as soon as you can or alternatively ring the NA hotline and get some support.......Our prayers are with you take care and keep doing what your doing and everything will be ok......
You will get better. It takes longer for some people due to the drugs they've used and damage they've done to the body, mind, and soul, but you will get better AS LONG AS YOU DON'T USE. Gary had some great suggestions (see above).
I've been clean over 4 years this time and every flippin morning is a struggle but I just do it.
I get tired easily have hepatits C I drink coffee and take small amounts 1/2 pill usually of caffeine to help me, I take vitamins and other supplements for my health.
Every day is a little bit of a struggle mentally I try to turn my will and life over to God and just do the footwork, I stay in prayer many days so I can stay out of my damn head.
Is it worth all that ? DAMN RIGHT I dont want to be stuck on stupid a prisoner to drugs again I love my freedom from that , from HAVING to use to feel good. Dont get me wrong most of my day is really good I feel great there are just moments and those will get better if you work on it.
HANG IN THERE - THINGS WILL GET BETTER - YOU WILL BEGIN TO FEEL BETTER AND YOU WILL BE CLEAN - IT'S NOT EASY CLEANING UP - ESPECIALLY THE PHYSICAL - IN THE LONG RUN - ONE DAY AT A TIME - IT DOES GET BETTER - PLEASE HANG IN THERE
That depends. When I hit my bottom, it was a physical, mental, and spiritual hell. I was so desperate I was finally willing to ask for help. That's what's called the Gift of Desperation!
Then it took at least 30 days before I felt hope. The body first, then the mind, and finally my spirituality. Took a good year and a half before I caught myself enjoying the present, not wrapped up in reliving the past, nor worrying about tomorrow.
Here in Texas we have a Texas Unity Convention every 3 months at Lake Whitney Texas. Most just call it "Whitney". I attended my first Whitney at 42 days clean, so that must have been May 1989. I don't remember alot of the emotions, feelings, thoughts, that I had prior to that weekend. What I remember was being full of regret for things I had done, things I hadn't done but should've, things that happened as a child I had no control over, I lived in sorrow, regret, and fear.
Now I won't tell you it takes exactly 42 days, but for me, since that weekend I have no fear of living any part of my life over. Some of the best memories of my life happened in the first 5 years I was clean and many of the positive emotions occurred in the first year.
I don't know what brought you to NA, but I strongly suggest that you bite your ass to a seat, these are some smart sumbitches that wrote this litereature, hang around these meetings and post on this wall.
I guarantee that life may not get easier, but the way you approach it and feel about it will!
jus keep comin i was jus like u im comin up on two yrs clean an im grateful. some days i stil dont feel ok but i hav faith. first things first stop takin all pills it is a part of ur addiction and it wil make u bleive u need it. pray keep talkn to ppl with the other suggestions USE UR SPONSOR!! KEEP MAKIN MEETING STAY ALL DAY AT ONE IF U HAVE 2 AND U WIL BEGAN 2 FEEL THE CHANGE. FEAR! wil tel u u wont make it and have ur mind so consumed that u cant focus on ur recovery. U CAN DO IT IM PROUD OF U AND HOPE THAT U ARE STIL HANGN IN THER. INSTANT GRATIFICATION IS NOT ONE OF THE PRINCIPLES IN RECOVERY.
