by Manon Swafford on Sunday, November 28, 2010 at 5:58pm
long before the bells have tolled will I know what I am supposed to hold;
long before the bells have tolledI know what I wish to hold the bells are tolled I am here for the moment but how long beofre they are tolled befoer my dimise of one issue or another
in my head I silently hear them ring not knowing what they will bring death happiness or more to feed the pestimism I hold
Life is dreay not much can I seee clearly
I am living in fear not knowing why my God won't take me home
ppl say there is a purpose behind my pain /I fear I cannot suffer or endor for much more
one thing afgter anaother is how my life has played out what am i to do when the lights of my life are turned out?
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
BOY we need to stay out of morbid reflection Manon LOL i've been having the same thoughts.
Do one about floating along in life, thats how I felt this morning . I was looking back on my life and even where i'm at today and I felt like i've just been floating along whistling in the darkness of my life.
A WE BIT OF DEPRESSION I think, i'm real frustrated today trying to do things with my business, marketing, i'm getting out there and hitting doors with flyers I made up and business cards, checking into insurance stuff and having doors shut on me, but I guess this is a time for training in patience.
Morbid reflections, we all pass , our time is short I'm 49 years old and may live another few years but not another 49 LOL, see what i mean ?
Stay in the moment, stay in today thats what I tell myself and be greatful for the love of others, a roof over my head, food to eat and clean and sober withouth the need nor desire to use, thats a blessing in itself.