I have been using/abusing oxy and Norco/100s for over 2 years. Ran out 2 weeks early so haven't had any for 5 days. I took valium and Tylenol and somehow made it thru. Now I just have EXTREME weakness and severe depression. This coming Monday is my pain med dr./refill day. I do need the meds but just can't control how many I take. This makes 7 months of withdrawals at the end of each month, usually less than a week, this is by far the longest. Is there any hope that I will feel well enough to pass on the refills in 6 more days? As much as I CRAVE the meds to feel just normal and to even function at all, I am tired of this roller coaster. Any ideas on how to control my usage, as perscribed??? Also, I have severe social anxiety so can't go to meetings. Please, any advice???
Welcome to the Board. Have you disclosed to the doc what you have been doing and how you end up? If not, come clean with him or her-and maybe treatment is in order, just to get you started. You can go to meetings online and call local NA on the phone until you feel able to try live meetings. There is also good literature and info at na.org.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
NA is a program of recovery through the 12 steps. We share our experience, strength, and hope. We believe in complete abstinence from mind-mood altering drugs. Going to meetings on a regular basis is a key to recovery in NA. I hope you can get to some meetings. Lots of people with social anxiety manage to make it through meetings and their anxiety gets better as they get accustomed to being around people.
Hello and wecome Linda,our program of Narcotics Anonymous is one of "suggestions" not advice.We share what has and has not helped us in our journeys of working recovery a day at a time and also follow suggestions.This program works but its not a magic cure,you have to do the work.We say never have we seen the a person fail who works an honest program(paraphrased)We do have to "step out of our comfort zones at times" and that in turn reenforces the things we need to do....ARE YOU WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FIND A "NEW WAY TO LIVE"/ Hope so..here.take my hand,c'mon in the waters fine! :) :)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Thanks so much for the replies and suggestions. My dr. knows a little so he has cut my meds down 4 times in 6 months (to 1/2 what I was taking). That is why I am in this situation now. No matter how I try, I keep taking my original dose. If i tell him, he will cut off all meds permanently. I live in a state where you can only get meds thru a State monitored pain clinic, so it prevents dr. shopping. They are extremely strict. That's why I wish I knew if this horrible fatigue and depression will continue, as once I tell my dr., there is no going back. I have had severe depression for 6 years and NOT ONE antidepressant ever worked, it was hell. But opiates DO take the depression away. I guess I am asking an impossible question. Today is the 6th day.I only woke up 1/2 hr. ago but I do feel a little better than the past 6 days. But not well enough to find the courage I want so desperately to not get refills Thanks again.
