just as soon as I think I am over the hill of what ever messI was trying to get threw something else hits me in the face this diabetes thing is scaring me tslkked to my doc over this weekend I have to be put on insulin a shot all the time? omg how the hell do ppl do it I enduer enough of those thru my pain doc nowI have to do it myself? I am scared and alone who is gonna want me all damagfed like this??
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon,Insulin shots are given with small needles .They might give you an insulin pen , they have 1/2 long needles.I have to take 8 shots a day,it sucks but it is life.Just take it in stride,don't get worked up over it.You already have enough on your plate.
I am scared and alone and don't know what to do i see my shrink tomorrow hopefully we can adress the anxietty and fear a bit he is new to me so we shall see part of me wants to give up and say fuck it and attempt to od again but my lucj i would wake again to tell about it later
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
I went to shrinks for many years. they were part of the problem for me. I found that they wanted to know every subtlety of my mood so they could try and medicate me into that illusive state of complete well being. It never worked. Never. All it succeeded in doing was to make me feel that if I wasn't feeling in perfect balance then I should take a pill. Now of course being suicidal or paralyzed with anxiety requires serious medical intervention, but after that I think it is important that we realize that as humans we will feel differently at different times of the day. It's ok. It's normal. No one walks around in a constant state of emotional bliss. If we are to mature then we have to develop other means of coping with less than perfect emotional states. My sponsor has a saying that comes to mind "move a muscle - change a mood" I find it really works for me. I'll take a brisk walk, or ride my bike. Voila! It usually works to improve how I feel and it utilized the program instead of a drug. It works if you work it.
THANX AVID my mom has sent me to shrinks all my life that is all i know but to hear your story or experience is a different light (they can't deal with me give me this) etc. I can relate with what you are say ing but I also know as being bi polar I cannot afford to get off my meds either that can be dangerous this has just been a trying week almost went to the psyc ward last night at my wits end Iam supposed to be getting reay to go to my new shrink here in a few Iam scared cause I don't klnow him but the doc that helped me thru a really tough time has moved on but suggested this certain doc just for me was gonna have to wait till feb but someone canceled which was a good thing atm for me anyways so we'll see how things go I will leave an update
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
I am also on shots... you get used to it.... you dont ever have to use again.. if you are alone you are not going to meetings or using your phone list..... we are never alone in NA
marigold what you don't get is i am agoraphobic don't get out much nothing feels safe anymore i do use my phone and i have a sponsor so realize I am working my program to the best of my ability your post came across judgmental i don't take well to that so i will practice principles b4 personalities
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Youve got rto stop em chocolates once and for all dearie.. Then begin walking...
I walked my ass off when I was tested as diabetic.. then the nexct test shocked the nurse,,,,it was gone,, thank God never to come back. That said, I am still vulnerable to it. I can actually gfeel the increase in sugar put me in an irritable, edgy state, till I start walking and consuming properly again.....
Good luck to you... Hugs.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
YOU ARE ONLY DAMAGED IF YOU SAY YOU ARE...WORDS ARE POWERFUL - MANON BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU SPEAK INTO YOU. IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS - READ THE LITERATURE, PRAY TO YOU HP AND GO TO MEETINGS. IF YOU LOOKING FOR THE PROBLEM - YOU WILL CONTINUE TO FIND IT. WE ARE SOLUTION SEEKERS - FOR THOSE WHO WANT TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THERE PROBLEM - NO MATTER WHAT IT IS..I HAVE TO TELL YOU - KNOCK OFF CONTINUE PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN - IF YOU WANT WHAT WE (NA) HAS.. DO WHAT WE DO..
I'm with Fiesty...cut the crap, drop the drama, get a grip, and don't screw up the doctor appointment! THIS IS SAID WITH MUCH TUFF LOVE, M'DEAR :) If it's not helpful, maybe kick the s---t out of a pillow and then, like Raman sez, TAKE A WALK. Put the agorophobia on the back burner---you can get back to it later!
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
Manon... I had a similar situation as you...7 months in bed, bad bad depression....all bad. Lee is right. The only way to get out of it...IS TO GET OUT OF IT. Make a decision. A CHOICE. Be YOUR OWN best friend. Get up...brush your hair, brush your teeth...then pat yourself on the back. Do the DO things.
make a list...do three things on it. Make a goal...achieve it.
Write. Writing is the best therapy as far as I am concerned. get a sponsor...SHARE what you write. TRUST someone.
write a letter to God? tell him/her what a pain in the a** your life is :) see what kind of answers you get! LISTEN to your mind...give you your replies. Talk to memebrs...listen to what feels right in your heart.
NO ONE is born damaged. My mom was diabetic...you'll live. it's not so bad. She would drink when i was younger and pass out, start shaking, and as young as 7 years old, I had to inject her. Trust me...you'll be fine.
We just DO what we have to DO. that's all!!
4th step...clear debris...and start fresh.
they're right about meeetings...only way to get out of depression is to stop THINKING about yourself...your life, your problems. your inadequacies...Bah. Our egos are HUGGGGGE!
We are HUMAN. We are FALLIBLE.,.and we have the RIGHT to a restart EVERY GLORIOUS MORNING.
Try not to say ANYTHING bad about yourself again. It is manipulative attention seeking. I know it..i do it too. It's because YOU NEED ATTENTION. this is a human need. Not a bad thing...but lets find it the right way.
Making a decision to one day at a time NOT berate yourself...if VERY powerful. It is what lead me here. and I am here to stay, trust me.
So...thank God for another day! Dude...how lucky are YOU!! some guy this moring on my local new station was goign to work, got a flat...and a cube van destroyed him. Now...HOW LUCKY are we...to have ONE MORE CHANCE TODAY. Poor guy.
Good luck. I am on day 1 of being clean. This is my first day and my first try in NA. The only way i can stay clean..is by focusing on FIRST THINGS FIRST. and i really have a great deal of hope. If someone like ME thinks this can work, then darlin' it can work for ANYONE. Peace
