I was using and driving killed nmot only a tire but bent the rim and know nothing about that stuff I have always been rough on tires but Iam really beating myself up right now over a damn rim!!!!!!!!!!!! I took too many pills and then took my boyfriend back to his house well...............there is unmanagable powerless I need to surrendder or I might not make itback
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Self-destruction is the nature of the disease of addiction. Have you ever actually considered that working these steps might just actually work? Of course, the problem with that, is that we have to actually make some changes. I want to reach out and scream "Forget these freakin' boyfriends and get a grip!" But I guess that would be tacky.
I will tell the world I have less than no tolerance for people who use and drive or drink and drive. We who do that have managed to kill, including running over our own children. Try living with that.
If you are going to blast your brain, at least don't put those in your path at risk.
And yeah, I too have used and drank and driven. And have had a hard time living with myself as a result. But in sobriety, the realization that a desire to live--in spite of my sins--is a God-given gift that is a result of the steps. I pray daily that I do not reject that gift.
My deepest amends is to show someone else that living clean and sober is possible. Even we who have taken life--wordly or spiritually--have a responsibility, I think, to go on. Not to do so is a coward's way out-we don't have the right to just slip away after destroying someone else. So, we carry the message and practice these principles in ALL our affairs.
But first ya gotta have a message to carry! And it ain't beating yourself up over a tire rim.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
To use or not to use make a decision and stick to it. It's better than going round and round in circles....... I know this sounds harsh but sometimes it's the things that are hard to hear that we need to hear....
-- Edited by Ruthy on Monday 8th of November 2010 01:15:04 AM
Manon: I'm glad you're okay. It could have been worse. I'm wondering--do you go to regular NA meetings or just post on this board? I have found that while online resources can be helpful, they are no substitute for going to meetings in real time with flesh and blood people. When you go to meetings, you can find a sponsor who can help you with working the steps.
