Im new to recovery and this site just wanted to introduce myself ive been having a rough time and the only thing that helps is talking about it and going to meetings ive been in and out of the rooms and hopefully this time I stay in them
NA WELCOMES YOU ALL THE WAY FROM ALASKA - GO TO MEETINGS, PRAY, CONNECT WITH ADDICTS WHO ARE NOT USING, GET A SPONSOR, GET A BOOK, READ THE BOOK AND MOST IMPORTANT DON'T PICK UP..AGAIN WELCOME
thanks everyone for the welcome I am very grateful to make it back I went through a lot this run and lost my husban and my little brother to this disease I'v e been a heroin addict on and off since I was 17 and now am 32 and feel like I'm emotionally still way back at even before 17 I'm having a hard time dealing with my emotions and it is very hard because thats what always made me run to get high was not to feel anything but I'm so sick of the running and trying to find ways to get it I'm driving myself and everyone around me crazy I need to find a way to get my emotions in check without using I'm trying and searching for a meeting toi go to in person this evening so I'll keep talking on here and go to regular meetings as well being on here its alot easier to open up its my first time online going to meetings
We all struggle with the feelins thing NA says thats a big part of our troubles, another program says its lack of power and i say its both.
Go to meetings, get a sponsor and call her and get nubers and call them, work the steps with your sponsor and clean house then get into service, make yourself a part of the groupand let the program work, stay clean . It's a simple complicated program LOL but if we can you can stay willing and honest and open to new ideas, every day is a new day for me but I have the tools and the power greater then me and my addiction going for me, spiritual awakening is what we seek and that takes a little work and perseverence, make a decision to do these things each and every single day and it will become a way of life and the old life will be gone soon enough.
