Many of us have lived our entire lives in revolt. Our initial response to any type of direction is often negative. Automatic rejection of authority seems to be a troubling character defect for many addicts.
A thorough self-examination can show us how we react to the world around us. We can ask ourselves if our rebellion against people, places, and institutions is justified. If we keep writing long enough, we can usually get past what others did and uncover our own part in our affairs. We find that what others did to us was not as important as how we responded to the situations we found ourselves in.
Regular inventory allows us to examine the patterns in our reactions to life and see if we are prone to chronic rebelliousness. Sometimes we will find that, while we may usually go along with what is suggested to us rather than risk rejection, we secretly harbor resentments against authority. If left to themselves, these resentments can lead us away from our program of recovery.
The inventory process allows us to uncover, evaluate, and alter our rebellious patterns. We cant change the world by taking an inventory, but we can change the way we react to it.
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Just for today: I want freedom from the turmoil of rebelliousness. Before I act, I will inventory myself and think about my true values.
I, like most other addicts, have been rebellious, rejecting not only authority figures but also other people's ideas. A large part of getting clean for me is being open to other people's ideas and suggestions and not automatically rebelling from what I don't find convenient or agreeable. This doesn't mean I am a sheep, but I am willing to follow directions from NA people.
My true blessings today are that I still ,through God's grace ,remain teachable!!! Each day is another opportunity to learn more about myself and strive to have a better concious contact with my Higher Power!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
