just where do the lines cross when it comes to anonimity if you feel you are unsafe or in fear of someone in your home group which is here for me some know what i have been going thru since "kelli a" has writteh HIS suicide note to jar me into insanity that i have yet to recover from it seems never ending although things are quiet for the most part my mind is far from quiet as my health is getting worsr which makes it hard to deal with my duality cause when myhalth goes my mind seems to follow so maybe i am being to cautious or maybe i have simply gone mad?? I have been waking in te mornings with blood on my pillow and having to have epiderals in my spine from a dehydraded disk as well as my trigger points and lets not forget the broken thumb ppl around me are driving me right back into isolationdue to lack of skills that I have just not developed being instatutionalized most of my teen years asa well as my adult life I just wonder how much I can really take cool part of all this which I am grateful to have over a month clean for me at this moment that is a miracle I am not actually counting days i seem to set myself up that way it is about progress not perfection I guess part of what bothers me is I see the signs that mean something to me that others may just pass it by and not think anything of it me i analalize over and over No matter how much I isolate the shit keeps coming ifI go aay my mind follows DAMN THE LUCK LMAO
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Keep sharing Manon! we are hear to listen and offer support in a loving and caring manner.Great on month clean,,that will definitely allow you to do the work where you need to....peace
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You're doing it Manon. There's nothing else to do at the moment but stay clean, the rest is just illusion, we can accept it as important or let it go. Congratulations on the 30 days!
I'm really glad you feel safe enough to share. That can bring me some real strength in times of fear and trouble. I am in agreement with most everyone else that it is awesome that you are clean and able to continue the journey. Thanks for sharing!
