Hey there all, I am a grateful recovering addict. Who struggles daily with my negative head. I have always had a very strong faith in God - until I came in to recovery. It was at this time that I have started to question my faith. I no longer want to be one who only prays when I am in a cell or in deep shit. I want to be able to pray for thanks or guidance. For far too long now I have crawled in to NA only to waltz back out a few months later feeling on top. It is a price to great for me to pay anymore. I have tried to control all in my life including my recovery, and it just doesn't work. I need help, And yes Iam willing to go to any length to get it.
welcome home you have came to the right place congrats on those 45 days that in itself is a miracle maybe that is why we calll this a miracle in progress hope to hear more from you what ever you do don't pick up unless its the phone
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Timmo welcome to the board. Manon said it perfectly "you are home". I am just as guilty as far as the 911 prayers go. I've been to rehab twice in the last year and home since April and it's a daily struggle for me to ask for guidance on a daily basis. I think i am getting better at it but sometimes it feels forced and I hate that. Good Luck! and it doesn't matter whether we walked, ran, or crawled into NA only that we made it. Keep us posted on your progress.
Take Care, Stacey
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The Will Of GOD Will Never Take You Where The Grace Of GOD Will Not Protect You
the suggestions haven't changed. Make a meeting a day for 90 days. Get and call a sponsor. Work the steps. Read NA literature. Pray. With these you are well on your way. Keep posting here for encouragement and support. We cannot do this alone, but together we can.
Negative thinking is part of the disease of addiction. I used my negative thinking as a "justification" for using. In NA, we learn to think differently by following the suggestions (see Avid's post above).
Welcome Timmo,glad you are here.Take direction and follow suggestions,really surrender this time and you can be on your way to "a new way of life'!!!Keep coming back
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Hey Timmo, Welcome. I have found that my way of relating to God changed thru the steps and thru being clean. I have experienced God keeping me clean by blocking my way and experience God in new ways since being clean. The key for me is that I am experiencing God now that I am clean and before I lacked the relationship that I have today. Please, stick around and share your experience.
