We learn to be careful of praying for specific things.
Basic Text, p. 46
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In our active addiction, we usually did not pray for knowledge of Gods will for us and the power to carry it out. On the contrary, most of our prayers were for God to get us out of the mess we had made for ourselves. We expected miracles on demand. That kind of thinking and praying changes when we begin practicing the Eleventh Step. The only way out of the trouble we have made for ourselves is through surrender to a Power greater than ourselves.
In recovery, we learn acceptance. We seek knowledge in our prayers and meditation of how we are to greet the circumstances that come our way. We stop fighting, surrender our own ideas of how things should be, ask for knowledge, and listen for the answers. The answers usually wont come in a flash of white light accompanied by a drum roll. Usually, the answers will come merely with a quiet sense of assurance that our lives are on course, that a Power greater than ourselves is guiding us on our paths.
We have a choice. We can spend all our time fighting to make things come out our way, or we can surrender to Gods will. Peace can be found in accepting the ebb and flow of life.
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Just for today: I will surrender my expectations, look to my Higher Power for guidance, and accept life.
I like the part where it says in the beginning we are careful to not pray for specific things. In the beginning I prayed for patience. Wow My God gave me exercises in learning how to have patience. It took approximately six months for some of the events to happen in my life that I was needing patience to accept to happen. At the end ot this, I realized that patience wasn't what I was needing but serenity. Needless to say I have never prayed for patience again and now pay to have serenity with what my God is allowing to have today.
I try not to pray for specific things because that just sets me up to be disappointed if I don't get them. It's not my job to tell God what to do. It's my job to ask for her guidance and help and to try to the next right thing.
I continue to seek through prayer and meditation to improve my contact with the God of my understanding,I always first give all glory and praise,ask for forgiveness,petition for others,petition for knowledge for myself of how to be everything I was intended to be through God's grace and mercy toward me......Then its off to "meet the world'!!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Man is this the right place for me right now. I'm going to move forward in my recovery no matter what! My mind is made up. I don't know how to live life without creating a little drama every now and then but I'm not going to stop trying!
Thanks everyone for sharing nere. I'm gonna work on this part of my addict behavior a little more today. Meditation is what I'm hearing here.
