today so far was a good day....i went to my brother house for awhile an he gave me a hug which is weird...my brother is def not the person who would hug...he told me he is so proud of me for trying the best i can...it felt good to hear tht from him...im living just for today.....so now im back at my moms listen to lots of heavy metal and death metal to get me thourgh the night...going to a meeting tonight..hopefully tht will go well...