today was a little better....i didnt give in last night which is amazing....i really want this i do..but then another part of me just wants to say fuck it and go back out....i hope these cravening will stop soon
The cravings never stop, hun. It's something we go through everyday. It's painful, it sucks, it's boring, and sometimes seemingly ridiculous, but it's what we have to do. There's only one other choice... and it isn't a pleasant one.
NA makes one promise. "Any addict can get clean, lose the desire to use drugs and find a new way to live." Yes, the cravings will go away. In time. Staying clean today brings you one day closer to the day when you lose the cravings. We can't do it alone. We go to meetings, get a sponsor and a support group, work the steps and immerse ourselves in recovery to the same extent that we immersed ourselves in getting, using, and finding the ways and means to get more. It get's better. It really does.
I agree with the quote Don posted. This is going to pass. It's been a long time since I had the desire to use. I've done plenty of other stupid shit, but I haven't wanted to use in many years.
Keep coming back and welcome to the "No matter what club" it's the only one around!
I ditto those before me...the cravings will pass. you just have to ride that horse until he lies down and you can get off. hang on. we are all here for you. we need you here for us.
Urges, cravings, thoughts, yes all normal for the addict. I don't crave dope today! I don't have the urge to use today! and for that I am truly grateful! If the thought arises, I know that it is only a thought. I do not "entertain" that thought and make sure that I don't only remember "the good drug experiences." I "play the tape through" as they say. There are so many consequences to my useing it ain't even funny, and that has been proven over and over again! I use the meetings and the steps to help keep me clean today. Without the tools of recovery I am then working on a relapse. Hang in there. It gets better, give yourself a break, you are right where your suppose to be!
