SEAN,NOTHING CHANGES,IF NOTHING CHANGES!!As difficult as it is,we have to change our thinking and attitudes and behaviors...we didn't become addicted overnite,so EASY DOES IT! sounds like cute sayings,,but reach out for whatever straws you can....you realy have to want this...............We are here,bring yourself out of the dark and into the light.......In support..........
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
You deserve to live a better life. Yes it takes some work to stick arounc and get some recovery but it is soooo worth it. If I can do it anyone can. You have earned your seat in these rooms. Don't let the drugs control your life anymore. Stick around you will have your life back. It is a beautiful thing. When I was little my teacher said something that made a lot of sense and particularly in this situation it was "if at first you don't succeed try, try again. Never stop trying. If you fuck up and you live through it then take it as a learning experience and try again. Then again no one can tell you what to do. We can only give suggestions. It is up to you to do the work. Pray every day for the strength to do it. Maybe you haven't reached your bottom yet. If not you will eventually. If you live on using it will be a miricle in and of itself. Each time is like russion rulette. You never know. Stay clean and you have a better life. It is up to you. I love everyone in these rooms and pray for them and hope the best for them. I will pray for you that you will find your way. A good way.
Sometimes I feel like giving up too. Especially In the beginning; I relapsed alot. I wouldn't advise relapse to anyone because we never really know if we can get back and the disease is strongest when we give in to it and use.
You can do this, anybody can do this, whatever we are going through will pass, good and bad stuff.
No matter what stay if you haven't used and come back if you have.
IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT / AND HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED RECOVERY - AND THEN ONE DAY - WHEN "I KEPT COMING BACK" I BELIEVED THAT I TOO CAN HAVE RECOVERY..FOR ME I HAD TO DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING EVEN WHEN I DIDN'T WANT TO - IF I FELT LIKE USING - I DID NOT GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION TO USE - WHEN I WANTED TO STEAL - I DID NOT GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION TO STEAL..WHEN I WANTED TO GO HANG OUT WITH FOLKS I HAVE NO BUSINESS HANGING WITH..I DID NOT GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION..DON'T GIVE UP - PRACTICE NOT GIVING YOURSELF PERMISSION TO USE AND MEANWHILE - WHAT I DID - GOT TO MEETINGS, EAT, SLEEP, CONNECT AND PRAY..THAT SURE HELPED ME AND I NOW HAVE 4 YEARS CLEAN..WE DON'T GIVE UP - WE SURRENDER - SOUNDS CLICHES BUT ITS TRUE - TRUST EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE AT - AND GO FROM THERE..I WILL KEEP YOU IN PRAYER MY FRIEND
You have a choice, if discussion meetings are killing you, like they do so many people, find your nearest book study. I myself go to meetings, not to hear how shitty someone's day is, but to find a SOLUTION, and you cant find the solution when the groups focus is on who had a bad day.
