Ok so heres the deal may not be a big deal to you but it was for me for several reason and the main one being it showed me that i'm maturing and getting a better grasp on whats REALLY going on inside of me and outside of me.
I asked myself this question, " why the he;; do I get so upset about things ? people places things and situations? ".
Here what came to me crystal clear.
Yes things upset me and I react and I often reacted badly or wrong but its not really wrong because it's all I know. But what I came up with was that yes I get upset when someone callls me an asshole, lets use that as a start. But what REALLY BOTHERS ME is the WAY I REACT, it's not even whats said that bothers me more its how I feel and then how i React that really bothers me more then anything.
OK lol thats it, but is it? no more has to change inside when these outside things hit us or slam us when we're powerless over people places things an situations , I MUST stay calm and not over react otherwise i end up feeling bad and i end up even looking bad, just a thought, .
This is an important revelation. How I react to things plays a big role in whether I have major problems in my life. I, too, often react emotionally when threatened without thinking. This can result in bad outcomes for me and others (anger, resentment, etc.). Today, I am trying to think before acting, and not just impulsively react to a situation.
Today I believe we have choices while in active addiction we didn't know about those choices. I can make a choice to react or to just let it go and address it in a different way when I get upset in life. I tend to let it go but if I notice it is taking to long too let it go then I have to address the person that said stuff to me and I don't do it right away. I take my time and try to let go and Let God take it. Well when I sit down and write an email to explain it and send it I immediately feel good about it. I don't ever respond to the email cause it is my view and I had to let you know where I stand with that.
