Keep them thoughts ,Stephanie,welcome to "a new way of living"Congratulations on your freedom from active addiction. Making meetings are very important,but I would also suggest getting a sponsor and keeping a close support group.Remember you said you have been "in and out" so 'What are you going to do different this time"?Our solution is in the spiritual principles of the program(STEPS) worked with a sponsor. Sounds like your pretty hooked up in Step 1,two parts to it,,work it and when its time"Coming to believe" like our literature tells us is necessary to achieve ongoing recovery, fill the void by our admission of powerlessness and unmanageabilty and not to pass over it with a minimum of concern..If you are working hard by showing up, sharing when you can,finding a sponsor to work steps with, possibly getting an early commitment(service)and being honest this may be some of the grace you are experiencing this time..?Stick around and help keep us clean ,one day at a time". For an addict you have "everything",freedom from active addiction  Savor the feeling... .

Lol i am deff loving the feeling!! Feels way dif this time!! Also, yess I realize my past mistakes i think being to "shy" to ask for a sponser was and is my biggest sponsor but now the thought of rejection is NOTHING compared to fear of relapsing because of not doing what i know that i NEED to do!! Thank you very much for your response!! n peace be with you!!

Hi it's so nice to have finally found NA online. I have been around the fellowship for a long time and try to work the programme on a daily basis. I have been clean and sober for the past 23mnths and Have not done a meeting since leaving rehab 12mnths ago until today. I live in Kempsey and there is no NA only AA. I really needed to get back to meetings because the isolation is becoming suffocating so I bit the bullet and attended a meeting where I shared about how I felt vunerable being an addict in an AA meeting and how that had kept me away from meetings. I also shared how the isolation was jepodising my recovery and that the using thoughts and dreams were becoming more frequent and the fear of self sabotage was becoming more apparent. At the end of the meeting the chair person informed me that I was welcome but this was AA and that I shouldn't share about the drugs cause that might scare the alcoholics away from the meetings. My feelings of not fitting anywhere have been totally reinforced and it's not a nice place to be at nearly 2 years clean