One of the first things that happens to many of us in recovery is that we start to look better. We get healthier; we bathe; we dress more appropriately. And without the goading of active addiction, many of us finally stop stealing, lying, and hustling. We start to look normal -just by removing the drugs.
Looking normal is very different than being normal. Acceptability in the eyes of the world is a benefit of recovery; it is not the same thing as recovery. We can enjoy the benefits of recovery, but we must take care to nurture their true source. Lasting recovery isn't found in acceptance from others, but in the inner growth set in motion by the Twelve Steps.
Just for Today: I know that looking good isn't enough. Lasting recovery is an inside job.
There are still times in my life when it seems I am an odd piece in a social setting!! So be it, my validation comes from the grace of my God....If I may seem a little weird at times,well I probably am!! :)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Avid, you can't possibly imagine how badly I needed to hear/read your post. It still seems to suprise the hell out of me how often "my perception" so very different than "my reality". Sorry I've missed your post but thing's have been a little crazy lately. I've moved into a new house (new to me) and done a lot of remodeling. How's everything w/ you? Hope your enjoying the summer. Have a great day!
Stacey
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The Will Of GOD Will Never Take You Where The Grace Of GOD Will Not Protect You